Am i real is anyone on here real ive yet to meet someone who is completely honest and i for one am just a sorry excuse here, i dont feel like i belong in this world anymore, you know it just seems like everyones grown to hate me and im sick of it, im sick of using drugs and alchohol to overcome my pain,and i just want to be free but i dont know how only one way i think can get this done so to everyone on here i say good bye.

there are alot of real people on here. Stick it out, things will get better.

What are you talking about? You are young, you have a lot of options yet ahead of you in life. Ending your life is the worst thing you can do. What about the family you leave behind?? How will they feel??

Have you been using tonight?? Now???

i use all the time and i cant stop im wasting all my money on it.

don't worry about what others think, just be you ...As for the drugs and alcohol, you need to figure out the source of your pain first so that you do not need these things but keep trying , keep seaching, I bet better times are just ahead , good luck to you

I know where you are coming from man. I have had my bouts with drugs and alcohol myself. If you want to try and stay off that stuff and find some people that really do care, consider going to an AA or NA meeting. They have kept me clean, sober, and alive for over 7 years now.

People care, you just have to know how to see it.

Have you tried counseling Adam?? They could help you identify the source of your pain and help you get off the drugs and alcohol.

It really helps to have a counselor or a group to talk to while you are going through hard times. I have been to different groups in the past and they have helped me a lot. I have made some great friends through them. There are crisis lines you can call and talk to people usually 24 hours a day too.

If you were off the substances, you would have a lot more money to live on, to do things you wanted to. You would feel a lot better about yourself.

no one understands my whole life i lived a lie and i dont deserve anything i have ive filled everyone i care about with lies and deciet.

That doesn't matter, we all have lies and deceit in our past. The important thing is the present. You can start with today, and start over now. Make today a new beginning.

Don't beat yourself up for something that is old and in your past.

Move on to today and your future. Start over, start fresh.

Please get some help!!Nothing or no one is worth what your indacating here.As you can see,You have freinds here that care about you.Although we are not there in person,were hear for you.

but its never old i have a i guess u would say a fear of not being accepted complex its like lying is an addiction also to me.

well then dont you think its time to leave the drugs behind and start changing your ways, you made a big step by admiting your problem.now come on.....pull your self together your better than that. i use to do drugs to take the pain of loosing my ex wife, but all that did was extend the pain, and in the prosess, i lost every thing ive ever acomplished in life, but i was never realy mutch of a liar, ive always been pretty honest, i only lie to get my self out of trouble.
good luck.

i would respond but...........im not real....




its within your power to change the things you dont like about yourself..you just have to want to bad enough....


luke..use the force....

Adam - there is help out there for your issues, and there are different kinds of problems with lying too. They can be treated. Now is a good time to start. You can go to your doctor and talk to him/her about it, or go to a counselor, or start with AA, like one of the posters above me said. But this is the perfect time to get started on the new path. Your friends will respect you for it. There is all kinds of support for you out there, you just need to ask.

You can tell by the people posting to you, that we do care, no one wants you to hurt yourself. If we didn't care, we would have ignored your post.

Adam...what's done is done, can't be changed but the future is what you make of it. I've been where you're at... drugs, alcohol, lying, etc...and I used to beat myself up for it. Figured I wasn't worthy of "decent" folks because of all the "bad" things I did.

Well guess what. I got clean, straightened myself up, got a job helping people when they were at their worst. It was only then that I realized what I went through in my youth was for a reason. I've been in those people's shoes, know how they feel and it made me the BEST at my job. So stuff happens for a reason. Your trials now will make you a better man in the future, you just need to be man enough to ask for help in getting through this.

Good luck to you son. If ya need help, you can email me.

There is a term for that. It is called "Fatally unique". Think about that for a second, my friend. If you and your situation is so unusual... Why is there a term for it?

You are stuck in a conundrum every addict and alcoholic I've ever known has found themselves in. Me included.

"I can't get honest without getting sober, I can't get sober without getting honest. I may as well die." is more or less what is running around in your head, right?

That is not the case. Get sober. Honesty will come.

Adam...alot of people here who don't even know you are trying to help. They care...I care.

It is your life...if you hate yourself, you have to change. Noone else will do it for you. It is one of the hardest things to do in life admitting who you are now isn't working. Alot of people who posted have been where you are...I have too. On top of my failures, alcoholism, I have bipolar depression. If I can change, so can you.

Come back here and talk to us...talk to a counselor if we aren't helping. To change, you have to accept help to show you where to go. You have to do the work, but you have to listen also.

Good luck to you.

This is great advice Adam...everyone here has great advice...all for free. If people didn't care, would they bother giving it to you?

can you not go to your doctors they can put you in touch with counsillors and people who can help you. don't give up be strong