Trust me Navygirl, I was not talking about you but merely giving a perspective on the Op's feelings over the "Ex".

I'm not on speaking terms with my mind at the moment.
We needed a break.

Hope you can find it again.
When you need it :-)

Oh, that's not a problem.
It's locked in the safe, with my vintage porn.

the greatest sadness of the minds deceptions is that people in their natural first state of natural born human existence, do not wish for solutions for ALL, but rather only for solutions that include getting what they want for them self...

which in relationships has come to be be defined as another forsaking it's won wants in favor of self's wants...

which is quite the contrary to any equal of two peoples wants and passions be equal in value and validity...

which in time of natural course of human existence seems to compel to only but wish to hear only what soothes the self feelings that long for self sympathy...

for there is no doubt, the wish and want for self sympathy has destroyed many a minds and lives...

and these sad minds that follow such as being love become the ones living in self torture, and become hurter's and abusers of many of others...

since their mind is telling them most, since they validate these thoughts the most of all the thoughts they have in their minds, how others have and are not giving them what they want, or are not treating self as it wished to be treated...

but this is falsely believed only if falsely and improperly taught since childhood, that self sympathy is love...

a complete opposite of real true love, for love strengthens the soul and character, never weakening it as self sympathy does...

but as the world at large as a whole did embrace self sympathy, than now such collectively together creates delusions so large in the mind that the entire world at large threatens to destroy it self each one, just to prove to those who "wronged" self, how they were "wrong", and mistreated self...

but in a higher place, in a victorious mind set, where the MIND PICKS the feelings it self validate, there is no right nor wrong...

there is only what we our self allowed our self to be pressured or influenced into doing...

and if we in our naivety of mind, were not wise enough to spot the takers, hence enter into interactions with them, was it the takers fault, or was it our own faulty perception that did not see the total reality...

and if we did not see clearly, than there is but only one thing that cloud the self judgement with blind emotions of excitement of good for self, the enticement of what we think we shall get for our self...

but these can and will only be heeded by those who are duped by their own minds, because the mind naturally jump at thoughts that seem to say of what good or fun or excitement shall come for one self...

out of all the other gazillions of thoughts the brain does have and can incubate into existence...

the question be...

why and what would cause one self to be so gullible and naive as to think some other should choose self's emotions catered to over their own best emotions, as some would declare, selfless is love...

when indeed, self less is not love at all, but rather one wishing for a slave for it self in return for all they do or say, or none would believe that any self less should be the bar of love to begin with...

which is indeed the first delusion or enemy of the mind it self, for one self and for all who self interact with...

when truly, who would believe "selfless" is love, unless it self wanted another to be self less to it self...

another forsaking their own wants and emotions to care for our own MORE than their own...

hum...

that is not two peoples emotions as equal, as valid, which would be the only reasonable definition of equal love or caring...

but such is the blind plight of the love seeking minds of earth that are blinded to it self and all others, until it no longer seeks love based upon it's own minds declaration of what it self should have, believing others should be "selfless to for it self"...

once such equal principles of equal value of human emotions are adopted as real and true in the mind, there is no way possible self would or could ever deem it's own mind it's own worst enemy...

and self will have become friends with it's own mind, the greatest prize of human existence to be achieved.

Try Occam's Razor OP. When you chase yourself up into your own head, try a hobby instead. Get active, take your mind off being so bored it starts cannibalizing itself over days gone by.

Just think of it as unused energy, use it physically or it'll express itself mentally and that's not so good just after a breakup.
When you've been single a while or are in a good relationship, the very same energy creates imagination instead. It's purely circumstantial that it's doing this to you, but it's up to you how you direct excess inspiration in your life. Do nothing and it finds its own outlets. Best to govern it in a positive fashion.

Got some jobs around the house that need doing? Do them.