Friday would have marked her birthday. Honestly I do not remember her age. But that does not matter. She died a month ago on her wedding anniversary. And I was not there. Friday would have been her birthday. And again, I was not there. She wanted to be my best friend ans I was not there and it just makes me more and more like a no good daughter. I WAS NOT THERE FOR HER. how much of a daughter could have been. I loved my on and she really tried to reconnect me and I ignored her. I will forever think I am a horrible daughter. She was reaching out to me, and I did not help. Did I kill my mother?

If I had tried to reconnect with her, maybe I could have changed her life stile to help with her health.

Warm hugs....

Thank you, warm hugs back. Sometimes I wonder if I killed my mom

Of course not!...
Definitely Not.Your Mother loves you and She knows
You loved her.
This is a fact.No you did not kill her.
You wrap your arms around yourself and that is your Mom hugging You.!

You're not responsible for your mothers death. She was trying to mend your relationship and I'm sure she understood why you were reluctant. Mothers know. She loved you and loves you still. Find a way to forgive...especially yourself. Maybe talk to her at her resting place. Tell her everything but I assure you she knows. Big hug. Praying you find comfort and peace in your heart.

So sorry, don't ever think that.she's looking down on you with love and wanting you to be strong and go on

Before my mother dies she created a facebook acount (sorry been drinking.) She wanted me to be her best friend and I ignored her. She was never a mother so why would I want her to be my best friend. So I just ignored her thinking she was nut. A few weeks later she was gone. I am so having a hard time getting over it. I feel like I am such a horrible person

Sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace.

May you find forgiveness and understanding and fill your heart with love and happiness.

My heartfelt condolences.

My mother never hugged me, but I force myself that shw loved me.

Thank you everybody. She was a wonderful person. But because her brother molested her she did not know how to love, and she tried to reach out to me. I turned my back thinking that why bother my parents were never there for me so what it the point now. It was her diet that killed her. She was eating nothing but yoghurt and cottage cheese when she died. 15 years ago when I was staying with her she was eating the same thing. I often wonder if we stayed in contact if I could have change her diet. She wanted to be my best fried and I wanted nothing of it because of her pass actions.

Many warm hugs (((((whispertoascream))))

We are not responsible for the sins of our parents...Tomorrow is another day, make it count! ...((((Whisper))))

If you knew then what your mom was doing through, why didn't you intervene?

Now I just feel like you're airing her laundry in hopes to get sympathy / some sort of closure of your past guilt in making sense of both of y'all absents.
XOXO

*hug* . I haven't seen my biological father for years, but saying that, I still don't want to. Mum gave me a choice. You can't re-write the past. Whatever you did at the time, is lost in history. I reckon it might help you feel reconciled with her, if you visit her grave often. My stepdad likes to visit HIS mother's grave, about four days a week. Even if you drink a lot of alcohol to help cope with the death, well, I'll understand. Death is a hard fact of life. And I'm not sure how I'll cope when my mum dies. I think it would be a good idea if you talk to a therapist about it. As they'll have listened to thousands of others who have been in despair. And I bet you do what I do. That thing where the whole family act like they're not letting it worry them, yet really you're all desperate to tell each other how upset it makes you feel, but you keep it bottled up, for fear you'll make other family members more upset. Most importantly, take your time throughtout it ;)

Snap!!


Do you have to express every thought?....

Sorry 4 ur loss.

whispertoascream,

With me being a widower, I know the agony of losing a close family member.

You are going through the grieving process. I recommend that you get into a grief recovery group.

I agree Dodo, counseling helps a great deal. You can tell a counselor things that you wouldn't tell anyone else. You can have a good cry without feeling like you are making them feel awkward.

Pls take my condolence