I was wondering if anyone younger than my own sadsack self would EVER reference Bobby Vinton!

You are (seriously...not joking) a riot Bro! LMAO!

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.. oh my God even your jokes are sad. . what are we going to do with you.hmm.
. but seriously. look at all the people you have showing concern.. for what you're going through.. or more to the point putting yourself through.
. we have all been there brother.. well okay maybe not me.. ..jk.not. really..lol.. okay now what's your favorite color. and what's your favorite pizza topping.
.. and no dude I'm not trying to pick you up.. just answer the question.ok..

my favorite color is blue
my favorite pizza toppings are onions, pepperoni, banana peppers, anchovies, green peppers..

are you trying to get me hungry talking about pizza? thats my favorite thing to eat btw

bobby vinton is a good reference to all the lonely young dudes

F* them, you need work...You first, they come later.

That would be Mott The Hoople with David Bowie.

i know.. i just added lonely to the title

. okay now how are you feeling right now.?. and I swear to God if you come back with some.. sad sack nonsense. I'll never talk to you again..

Hey Stephen,
Look at that!. You just kept up a running conversation with two intelligent guys and a female, yes female, who don't think you're all that bad. me, I prefer a good Hawaiian pizza and don't get the Vinton comment, but then again people are always asking me what planet I've been living on because I don't always know modern culture. But you're off to a good start just makin easy conversation. Now tomorrow as you go about your business, walk confident and at least smile at people. Know that you are someone who deserves to be happy. But the first happiness is finding it in yourself. Have a good night.

i rather not say

i do smile.. but its not easy but i do smile

Dude, I'm not sure I believe you. I think the sardonic emo thing is your "Gig".

Heck, I might even try that myself. Chicks dig it!

i'm not lying about feeling like crap

sorry man....didn't (totally) mean to make light!!!!

as hard as it may be, i'm gonna go to sleep... goodnight y'all

. yeah good night man. get some sleep.. and welcome..2m2..

If you want a healthy relationship at some point, I strongly suggest you do some work on yourself so you feel better about yourself.
All your messages here scream "I feel sorry for myself!" and "I'm a victim!"
No one wants someone like that, unless they need someone like that to make themselves feel better, like you probably need someone stronger (and bossy etc.) to make you feel better. As long as you can't stand on your own two feet, you won't find happiness in love.

Ppl generally are attracted to ppl that are happy, empowered, stable, stand on their own two feet and respect themselves.
That's not ppl that scream "I feel sorry for myself!" and "you all treat me like shite!" (Sob sob)

Oh, and by the way, this has nothing to do with women, goes for both genders! Men wouldn't generally be attracted to women that moan and whinge, sulk, and don't stand on their own feet and vice versa.
There's plenty of topics here, and on the net, about what is considered attractive and what isn't. Maybe read up on that and start working on your self-esteem, love of self, self-respect etc. and stop blaming others for you not being happy. (so unattractive!)

As for comparing yourself with successful / so called good-looking men, again a sign of low self-esteem.
And Tom Cruise ain't good-looking at all, have you ever seen his conk? That's all I ever see
All he's got is charisma, he beams. Nothing to do with good looks, just persona and feeling good about himself.
If Brad Pitt was at my door, I prolly wouldn't even bother getting up to answer it. Sure he's got the looks, but there's something about him I don't like, a feel.
So ... looks aren't the deciding factor, personality and 'feel' are.

And Tom Cruise ain't good-looking at all, have you ever seen his conk? That's all I ever see
All he's got is charisma, he beams. Nothing to do with good looks, just persona and feeling good about himself.
If Brad Pitt was at my door, I prolly wouldn't even bother getting up to answer it. Sure he's got the looks, but there's something about him I don't like, a feel.
So ... looks aren't the deciding factor, personality and 'feel' are.

Hi CrystalFairy. I'm glad I'm not the only one who has a similar opinion in regards to Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt.
Hi Stephen, was just checking in to see if you tried the appearing positive and how that worked out. I say appearing because you talk of many things that aren't going to be worked out overnight. But you can start with small things and show your best side to the world. Keep hanging in there.

I agree with this although I may have phrased it a different way
But seriously, you need to love yourself first before anyone else will.
Without wishing to sound rude you need to put the violin away, pull your finger out and get on with it.
Good luck