I have recently decided that it was time to snap out of alot of things and get on the road to ritiousness. In the process, all the people who said they would be there to support me were gone. Not a big suprise since I kind of saw it comming. Either way, I am looking for some people who are very involved with music. I am an inventer of sorts, I have been working on a lot of diffrent instruments and finding one that will be diffrent and able to help me express the emotion that I have as i travle through this journey of sobriety. If anyone that reads this is some what of an engineer or has a knowledge of steel instruments, please feel free to write. Even if your not and want to share any type of stories that you have of similar situations, I would love to hear what you all have to say :) thanks everyone!

Congratulations on your steps to sobriety, I recently celebrated 1 year of sobriety after 17 years of addiction to alcohol and other drugs. I cant help with the music, but I know all about the loneliness that comes with the life changing decision we have made.

Thats awesome man congradulations!! Its sad when you think your "friends" are really going to be there for you and help you along but then bail out. I feel as though I have become a stronger more responsable person because of it though. I think about it and feel that, how can people who partied hard with me, help me fight that very thing if they themselfs cant do it. i focused alot of my time and energy into more positive things. Glad to hear someone out there knows all about it! thanks for sharing man!

I am still trying to figure out what sobriety has to do with righteousness.

Secondly, still trying to figure out what is so good about sobriety ....I don't get it. A good buzz is a great creative stimulant.

Im 4 years drug free now, (I used to smoke meth), and yeah, you have to completely reorganize your life. New friends, new location, and basically start a new life. At first, I couldnt even function, because my brain was saying,"Hey wheres my meth", but after 4 years I see what a better life I have being drug free. I quit smoking cigs too. Might as well do it all at once, I figured.

I never had a problem with alcohol. I go out for drinks maybe once a month, and thats about it, if that.

Good luck dude! I heard your music, and you asked for it, so I put my video "End of Stick" on there for you to hear.

But your shred. Im nowheres even close to doing what you do.

Keep doing it,

your damn good at it,

and stay sober, it does get better.

it has to do with not being able to have anything in moderation. it has to do with me fighting not to looze the home i worked so hard to get and so easly let go. it is about doing things with my own state of mind and not having anything to stimulate my sences to achieve things that i want to achieve. i dont knock you for wanting to have a little buzz for creativity so i ask that you dont knock me for wanting to take a diffrent approach. ritiousness dosnt have to have a religous connection to it. for me, its a word of greatness. i want to achieve greatness for myself and be more than what i settled for. i want the respect and trust of my family back. i want to spend time with my niece because her parents are all effed up and dont do anything for her. my music has gotten much better since i stopped because i have a diffrent type of emotion to feel and write about. it opens the door for more inspiration and people who actually can relate and support. again, i feel that in moderation if you like to do your thing, thats awesome i hold nothing against you for it, but, this post is really for people who share similar situations and are willing to help support eachother in their efforts. if its just a question of what im going for, i hope i answered your question. if its a way of saying that its all a load of ****, then there are MANY other forums you can write in and let this one be what it is. thanks.

I can not relate to what you are possibly going through. However, do not rely on others to get you through the rough terrain. This is about you... make your choices and stick to them. Believe in yourself.

thanks pyxxie :) its not so much that i rely on other people to get me through it, its just reliefe from the lonley feeling i have gotten through making the choice. just to know that other people know how the journey is and that they are successful in it, makes me feel better because where i am from, its rare. thanks again!

Hang out with those who are walking a similar Path!
There are many!

Thanks for the mail dude!

It made my day, to make a difference.

Not a problem brother. I understand completely at "not doing stuff in moderation ".......

Very well stated actually. Good for you bro. Hope it works out for ya.

thanks for the understanding man i appreciate it. continue to do what gives you the inspiration and creative edge in your musical quest.

Krup...there's a big difference between you controlling "it" and "it" controlling you.

Congrats to you Nintendu . I'm not an addict to alchol but have been/lived with them for most of my life. I see what it does and feel helpless that I can't say/do something to spark a light that brings them out of the jungle. I applaude everyone who is stong enough to finally say "enough is enough!" Stay strong and enjoy your music.

Actually, I am pretty sure it is a razor fine line.