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How do you wake up every day and deal with the feeling of being completely alone? I wish I had a helpful answer for you. The fact is, I AM completely alone, and have been for quite some time now. I deal with it because there's really no other option. How do you tell yourself it will get better? I don't. I don't know if it will get better or not. I suppose the upside is that it can't really get any worse. How do you make it better? If I had any clue as to how to make it better, I would have done so long ago. The truth is, I haven't got any idea. Nothing I've tried has worked, so I stopped trying. I write books, and that's what I do, and that's enough. How do you keep the will to live when you sometimes wonder if you're even supposed to? I don't think in those terms. "Supposed to" never even enters into the equation. I'm here, there's no "supposed to." I've come here because at this point I feel like I don't have anyone in my life I can talk to about this... I've posted on this board in the past and there are people here who honestly seem to care about others... I'm hoping this time is no different. There ARE people here who really do care about others -- I could tell you some personal stories to prove it. That's why I've been on this site for 4 years. But on line and real life are two different things. And I've resigned myself to the idea that, in real life at least, I'm just going to have to accept being alone. ^^ this. (Brilliant response Lex.) |
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How do you wake up every day and deal with the feeling of being completely alone? I wish I had a helpful answer for you. The fact is, I AM completely alone, and have been for quite some time now. I deal with it because there's really no other option. How do you tell yourself it will get better? I don't. I don't know if it will get better or not. I suppose the upside is that it can't really get any worse. How do you make it better? If I had any clue as to how to make it better, I would have done so long ago. The truth is, I haven't got any idea. Nothing I've tried has worked, so I stopped trying. I write books, and that's what I do, and that's enough. How do you keep the will to live when you sometimes wonder if you're even supposed to? I don't think in those terms. "Supposed to" never even enters into the equation. I'm here, there's no "supposed to." I've come here because at this point I feel like I don't have anyone in my life I can talk to about this... I've posted on this board in the past and there are people here who honestly seem to care about others... I'm hoping this time is no different. There ARE people here who really do care about others -- I could tell you some personal stories to prove it. That's why I've been on this site for 4 years. But on line and real life are two different things. And I've resigned myself to the idea that, in real life at least, I'm just going to have to accept being alone. ^^ this. (Brilliant response Lex.) Thank you. I really wish I could have written something different, but reality is what it is.... |
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What a great thread. Truly thought provoking. I will not give up on feeling whole. Without her in my life i have a void that longs to be filled. When i find her and i find that feeling again i will understand how worth the wait it has been.
We travel many roads in life, when you feel like you are lost just remember where you started at and where it is you want to be. |
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I remember when life wasn't like a fast-food store.
I have gotten pretty used to, "having it my way" and getting it, "right now". Being alone and single is the opportunity. Imagine being with someone and feeling like you're the only one in the relationship waiting for the other one to acknowledge you exist. When i get into the depression zone, I attempt to remind myself that it's just a temporary situation and will eventually change. It won't change all by itself. I have to do things that will bring on the change. Or, I can just enjoy the self-pity and waller in it as long as I want. I say I, me or my cuz I do all the above. If anyone else relates then, fine. If, it pisses anyone off it only means a truth nerve has been pricked. Feeling pissed about what others say about me is another 'opportunity' to investigate the, what truth has been touched to bring up this, uncomfortable, angry or rage-full feeling. Yes, I battle every day with not feeling comfortable in my own skin. It does take willful determination to not just quit living. Do I feel I am worthy of my life? Not always. Life changes. Suicide is a permanent solution. For today, I choose life. |
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