Warning, I do use a bit of profanity:

It's the worst day of my life, man I'm tainted out of luck,
But if you think about it now the only way is to go up,
I'm climbing out this grave until I'm standing up above,
Warming up inside and now I'm basking in the sun,
Then I'm reaching for the bottle, something slips in my control,
Til I'm picking up the shovel just to dig another hole,
The soil's getting rocky and the bottom's getting near,
I'm praying to the heavens some god will interfere,
I keep pushing him away and I push away my friends,
And I'm making these apologies I said I wouldn't make again,
I'd kill ANYONE who harmed them and I always tell the truth,
But I'm lying to myself or I'd know just what to do,
So I read the story of my life and then I take another look,
When I read the final chapter, I burn the ****ing book,
Then I climb back in my whole and I drink another handle,
Through the eyes of a drunk, I watch it all unravel...

((A reference to a drinking problem that I have gotten over, for the most part, but I still occasionally struggle to maintain an even keel and keep myself from going overboard))


---A bit more abstract?

Life is a metaphysical, manifestation of my manic frustration,
That is jammed within this panic until I'm gaspin and shaking,
Maybe if I was massive sedated, then this pact here with hatred,
Could be contained within my brain and I could laugh and just shake it,
But as sad as this state is, I'm a pacafist sadist,
And my sanity is lacking see, I cannot just take it,
I guess I have to lose face it, til this attitude changes,
Adversity don't work for me, whatever happened to jaded?
It was flat integrated into my daily plan in the making,
But I've broke it down and thrown it out until it's rapidly faded,
Now I'm staring at the wall thinking of bashing my face in,
Like if I hit it quick with viciousness I'll magically break it,
Do I have to restate it? I'm here rapid degrading,
To a creature that is featureless, abandoned and shameless,
So, do I answer the saints when they demand that this faithless,
Man grab for the stainless, put my thoughts up on the wall so now I'm happily painless...

((Just a angst/nearly meaningless play through aggression and words---))

One more, even more abstract and just fun in general from a darker side of things---

I pray to dark gods and the fiends and the angels,
I dream in my sleep and I speak to Azazel,
The demon bequeaths all the meanings of fables,
So see I am able to reach in the breach and make deals with Ba'al,
The darkness it beckons, this heart is decrepit,
Deformed and it's torn from the warmth of the blessed,
Scorned and it's wretched, informed that It's dead when,
The force of the torture endorphins affect it,
So pray for this madman who's faith is abandoned,
This hate is incased in a face that is average,
Tainted and ravaged, defaced and its damaged,
Lay rape to my fate make it painful and savage,
I'm begging for freedom instead I'm defeated,
By creatures so fiendish they feed off this weakness,
So I sit alone in the dark of this room,
Cuz to shed myself of demons is harder to do...

((Don't ask what inspired it, I just felt a steady beat in my head and went for it. I thought it was fun and zany... ))

Criticism, feedback, comments, all are appropriate as long as they're intellectually founded and are educated responses rather than pointless "you suck" etc.

Thanks for taking the time to read my little dalliances into the world of rap and poetry. Enjoy.


Please excuse my poor spelling. The bane of my existence.

Welcome....great entrance!

Thanks for the welcome. I try to make an impression. HAHA.

I'm a fan, you have beautiful imagery & your words flow nicely. My favorite is the first, a lot of "feeling" in which I think a lot could put themselves in there with you with their own lives.

Thank you kindly. More will come steadily. I write whenever it strikes my fancy or I hear an instrumental I like. I'll attempt to only put new stuff up in this forum rather than going back through my massive stack of binder paper.

Great flow of words.... Welcome and thanks for posting. Looking forward to seeing more.