Even if it is not what you had planned on it could still be within the same area..... one never knows what part of the medical field you could do until you check it out..... Even though it is not what you had dreamed of it could still be fulfilling in the end.

I always wanted to be a teacher. Unfortunately, I let others talk me out of doing if for various reasons. Finally, after all these years, I'm hoping to start school this coming year to get my teaching cert!

When I wasn't grown I wanted to be my dad.
I'm not him.
I'm a writer. Some call it a calling, but I wouldn't in public.
Because I never wrote anything that my dad would have liked.

When I wasn't grown I wanted to be my dad.
I'm not him.
I'm a writer. Some call it a calling, but I wouldn't in public.
Because I never wrote anything that my dad would have liked.

oh, kristi...

i wanted to be a neurosurgeon from the time i was two. it was all i ever dreamed of, my ultimate goal. i was headed in the right direction when i sidetracked myself with life.

at the age of twelve, i witnessed something dark and it...changed me. i started drinking and using drugs and eventually attempted suicide at fourteen. i did everything i could to shut my brain off, to stop thinking.

my brother moved me in with him and started me on a crash work-out diet...he picked me up from school every day and we worked out from four until ten. nautilus from four til five, martial arts from five til nine, and free weights from nine til ten. i got back on track and retook the tests i missed...picked up the pieces, at least for a while.

jumped into my studies, successfully. was a national merit scholarship finalist with several full free rides, dependent only upon my graduation. my mom moved out of my aunt's house and was living in a different city, and i was doing very well. then i got the call asking me to come to galveston...my step-dad's cancer had progressed and mom needed my help.

flash-forward and i'm asked to drop out of my senior year so that i can work more to support my family. i do it, tears on my face. a couple of months later, mom decides she can't watch him die and makes plans to move back to arkansas...i got an apartment and chose to stay til the end.

i ended up with my GED and getting a scholarship from that...more bad life-decisions and a failed marriage later, i quit my job in management and went back to school thinking i would go into education. my counselors convinced me to try for the pre-med anyhow, so i changed my major and did the jump...and then got pregnant again. i was taking 21 hours of school and working two jobs, one full-time and one part-time while pregnant and taking care of the three i already had. and then she was born and the world crashed around my shoulders.

i managed to get five years of school in, but i've given up on loftier dreams. after having to quit on three separate semesters due to raegan's health, i'm pretty sure i'll wait at least until she's a teenager to go back.

no, i'm not who i was meant to be...but it's my own fault. i made a lot of decisions that derailed me, and i take full responsibility for them. sometimes we don't realize when we're younger that we can change the entire course of our lives...literally. i hope that i can keep my kids from doing the same, and i hope that they can learn from my mistakes.

very good point.

and one i may end up pursuing.

unless, of course, charles gives us a raise, hehe...

I have always admirred you and feel that you may be discouraged now but that some day you will attain your dream. In fact I am counting on it. I just might be your first patient. I have a nasty little visitor sitting in my brain I would be glad to have someone so determined to remove.

Hummm my crystal ball says ya better look through the fields and see what part of the field may catch your attention and hold it.... Besides that what I understand your past credits are still good hummmm gives another perspective to the mind to consider....

and i have quite a few credits...in too many fields. i had a tendency to take courses because they interested me, whether they were in the direction i was supposed to be going or not.