If I had just one wish, just one prayer.
I would wish it, truth or dare.
Would YOU, could YOU, love me so dear?
As to make me love YOU to GOD I swear.
I am really NOT a picky man,
Bald head and all, in need of a tan.
But GOD this life is ruff, as I am just me and Not ruff.
I have been on this site, for almost three years now.
And I want so much to be, SOME woman's ,WOW..
I am as opened as a book,GOOD GOD FOLKS,I am an open book.
A truck driver for thirty years, as for relocation,
THIS whole United States is my back yard. My Nation.
If your looks are a bit hard to want to see.
I am NOT perfect nor , do I want to be.
Just a slim lady who can speak the truth..
I am not looking for a DR. Ruth.
Someone to hold me when I'm feeling down,
Someone who always wants me around.
A girl next door, that wants to explore.
A girl who desires ME, even MORE.
I love to make love, as any man would.
But just as often as YOU think we should.
Distance has no PLACE in time,
If YOU feel I am YOUR Mr.Fine.
I love to hug and kiss, I really do truly MISS.
Waking with the warmth and smile, of the morning BLISS...
If your single and LOOKING for a man who's true.
Then,PLEASE give me the time to prove, I COULD love YOU.


THIS was written from how MY HEART feels.
And TRUST ME, I DON'T DO, LETS MAKE A DEAL!
I want YOU, to WANT ME,
And through this life.
To REALLY feel the US WE COULD BE!

Thank YOU Modela,,,and really THANK YOU for being KIND.
And ALL MY TIME HERE,,,I feel has been a waste , to finding LOVE.
Yes, I have met some, made love to some, but NOT,,,a lady who REALLY wanted to be with one man,,,,,FOREVER,,,and HERE NOW,,THIS IS LIKE ,,,,,REALLY SAD.
I just wish for a something, that can't find the reason,
to want to come runnin with a pleasin.
For a man she could be with for ALL THE SEASONS..wink.
GOD ryhming is like ,,,,,DAHhhhhh,,DONE HERE..

There is a woman out there. A brilliant woman who will come across these words and know that she has found what she has been looking for, for a long long time. And she will know without a shadow of court, how precious this gift is....you are the gift my friend....and the brilliant woman who falls over you is going to be incredibly happy and she will never forget how very lucky she is to have found you!

xoxoxoxoxo

Thanks Miss Wiz, as I have a tear build in my eye, and think,,,GOD, if only THAT could be,,,
YOU know,,I sound like I am REALLY bumed, but its NOT THAT, I am a happy man, and I do care about OTHERS,,but to be here THIS LONG,,,and never to find the one who SEE'S ME,,,FEELS ME,,,,WANTS ME,,,,
I have to be real and ask,,,,,WTF?,,wink,lol,WHY?
And I come up blank...still here, still me, still wishing for ,,,,,,me to be found...
BUT """"NOT"""TO BE USED AND LET GO,,,,To have one tell me,,,I COMPLETE THEM!
But YOU are a good friend and ty for your very NICE reply,wink,,,

I don't believe your prayer will go unheard (((T.)))

And hey , you don't need a tan (that's "Hollywood propaganda"), and your shaved head and face look great...

As you have always said, you are just yourself and that is what is real....when you are real, real finds you too.

just keep being you,love will come

Thanks Angel, and THATS about all I can do,,and I do feel your right,wink,,

Terry -- Seriously, my friend, you deserve so much more....!

I've been on this site almost as long as you have -- and I've learned a lot from being here, and from being on other sites, as well....

And I finally had to wake up and smell the cardboard, and admit to myself that there simply isn't anyone compatible.

It's not about finding a partner -- that's not the problem. It's about finding someone I would actually want to be with. And that's just simply not going to happen.

But that's my story. Your mileage may vary -- I certainly hope so, T....!!

All good things come to those who wait...

Truly, I'm in the same basket as Lex.

Give me a compatible woman, or give me death.

It's truly difficult to find someone in our society today. Especially after high school, or college for those of us who have been lucky enough to experience that. Once we reach a certain age it's almost impossible to find a mate. I'm 60 and in many ways I feel like any chances I've had have long since evaporated.

The very idea of finding someone at my age seems impossible. Especially since the type of woman that would truly be compatible with me would need to have the mind of a child. Most women my age believe that they've seen it all, heard it all, done it all, and know it all.

Who wants to get tied up with someone like that?

I'm still looking for my sweet sixteen.

At least mentally anyway.

In all seriousness I've been thinking about traveling around to mental intuitions to see if I can find a truly sane woman who has been committed for that very reason.

Maybe I can convince them into letting her out.

It sure seems to me that all the women on the outside are already insane.

In the meantime, I've given up.

Although I guess I shouldn't give up because of age. A friend of mine has a father who is 80 years old and is dating a woman that he's thinking about marrying! My God! Getting married at 80? Like I said; the people who are walking around on the outside are indeed insane. I have an aunt who's close to 80 too, and she's running around dating all kinds of men. I only want one woman. Just a homebody partner to live a very simple life with.

Anyway, Terry, I certainly hope you the very best. You deserve to find someone to love.

Abra, and Lex, wow guys, I see I am not alone in thought, that it may never be found here, or in life..
And your sincere wishes for me are very heart felt...
If you guys can take this for what its worth, in the last 30 years, even through marriage, I was MOSTLY alone, as I drove over the road and was gone, about five days a week,,,,so being alone is kind-of common ground for me, and my life.
Whats NOT there, is that feeling, that knowing, that there is one special lady who loves me, and is THERE, WAITING for me, and MISSING me. To NOT be MISSED, is a feeling , like no other.
See not only did my exwife miss me, but also my three kids...so THAT BIG,,,,,,DADS HOME,,,hugs smuchies and her tender smile,,,
THATS, what I think I miss the most, now that all the kids are grown and I am single now about ten years...
I get through life happy and a smile for anyone who says hi, or passes me, but inside there is a constant void, a wonder, if ,,,,,
and or,,,,when,,,,,,wink,lol
So we all play out our living, and make everything work for us, but
a person to have love us,,,WE CAN'T FIX, or MAKE THAT WORK BETTER,,,wink Maybe soon there will be a Robodic Female who WE can program to show and give us ALL that we want,wink,lol,lol,
THERE'S A BILLION DOLLAR IDEA,,,,,,lol
Thanks you two for your compassion, time, and most importantly,,,YOUR FRIENDSHIPS to me,,,,,,CHEERS MY BROTHERS...

hang in there t

life has its way of working out when we are truly ready so, maybe it is her that isnt ready yet...

Now there's an idea worth pondering!

But seriously, Terry, if you're on the road that much you need to find a woman who likes to travel.

Ok, maybe traveling to truck stops isn't real exciting. But do you truly need to use the conventional truck stops? Maybe you need to become a bit creative and find places to rest on your trips that aren't so conventional?

See how far you can take that rig off the 'beaten path' at rest stops. Turn it into a genuine "sight-seeing tour" with interesting stops along the way.

Seems to me you should be able to find someone to go along for the ride. Place an add in the local personal ads, "Trucker looking for wild and crazy hitch-hiker. Must be single, free, close to my age, and programmable."

You might be surprised and actually get a sincere response! Then you better hurry up and take a course on how to program women!

His Vision, Her Heart

What is vulnerable
if it is, not the rose.
Born through the seasons,
left stemmed, blooms closed.
Her visions, a view
in her lifetime allowed,
As much as a flower,
can see through her shroud.
She will stay where
there is soil for plantings
Waiting to know
she is chosen,
enchanting.
He will pluck her
He wants her as his own
All she hopes for
is that he sees her and knows.
To him she is the most
treasured of beauty
No other rose will complete
his soul's duty.

Raine Les 8/8/2009

THIS has been my mission to find.
A lady who can love me as I would her, wink..Thats it!!!


Thank you Sharris for making me smile, and for a tear felt poem,,,and

For being a great friend to me,wink,,

I can totally identify with this. I think my marriage was, by far, the loneliest time of my life. To have someone around, basically all the time, and to be unable to have a conversation about the simplest of things, to be unable to say something meaningful and actually be understood --

But, with very few exceptions, I cannot remember a time when I DIDN'T feel alone. "Alone" has become the default setting.



Again, I totally identify. Only in my case, none of the ones who claimed to hold those feelings were at all sincere, in the end. If they "cared," it was because they wanted or needed something from me.



It's true. You can't force a person to accept you for who you are, you can't force a person not to lie to you about their alleged "feelings," you can't force a person to refrain from doing their damnedest to try to change you into someone else....



And here's hoping for some positive changes in YOUR life, my friend....!!

This is a touchy subject, and I'm almost afraid to comment on it, but I feel compelled to do so.

I honestly cannot understand your words above. The reason simply being that I cannot imagine marrying someone that I wasn't already super compatible with in the first place.

This is the very reason that I never married.

It most certainly wasn't that I didn't have the opportunity to marry. I could have easily been married ten times over, or more during the course of my life. I had at least 3 different women seriously begging to marry me. And even though they were nice girls the reason that I did not marry was because we simply didn't have that deep meaningful connection that I was seeking.

What would I have done had I married one of those women, only to meet the true love of my life at our wedding reception!!!

No way!

If I was going to marry it was going to be with the right woman or not at all. It ended up being not at all.

I'm tempted to say that this was 'unfortunate'. But it's only unfortunate that I never met the right woman for me. It's definitely not unfortunate that I didn't marry the wrong woman.

I have no regrets on that. Every marriage opportunity I passed on was for good reason! I didn't want to end up in a marriage like you described Lex. And had I married for the wrong reason that's precisely where I would have ended up.

So in hindsight I made all the right choices. I'm far better off having never married than to have married the wrong woman. I'm certain of that. I have no regrets there.

The other thing too, that truly upsets me, is that I've met PLENTY of women whom I sincerely believe I would have been extremely compatible with. Unfortunately in ever one of those cases the women were either already married to someone else, or deeply involved in a serious relationship with another man.

There were even times when I was in a position where I could have easily broken up a totally miserable couple and saved a wonderful woman from a miserable marriage.

I didn't do that because I had moral values that prevented me from considering interferring with an already established relationship. In hindsight I often wonder if the truly higher moral thing would have indeed been to step in and save the woman from a miserable situations.

Those kinds of moral values are still deep questions in my mind today. Did I truly do those women a favor by remaining silent and not stepping up and offering them an 'out' from their clearly miserable situation?

I guess ultimately I must believe in some kind of justice after this life, because I certaintly never got justice within this life.

I never met that wonderful compatible woman who was simultaneously single, free and equally interested in me.

Life could have been so wonderful for both of us. It's a total disaster not only for me, but for some woman somewhere, as well as potentially some kids who missed out on having a great father. Whether they were my offspring, hers from a previous marriage, or adopted. Some kids missed out on having a great father who would have truly been there to mentor them and encourage them in positive ways.

All that potential went down the drain. Does that even make any sense in terms of any 'divine plan'? Certainly not in this life. The only way it would make any sense at all is if there were an after life where compassion, love, and empathy reign supreme.

At 60 years old I don't even want to hear about raising kids.

I just don't have the energy to do that now.

Anything that happens at this point in my life is basically too little too late.

None the less it would still be cool to find that compatible woman even today. But like you say, the outlook is quite dismal. If I didn't find her in 60 years back when I was young, handsome, and on top of my game, what would make me think I could find her now?

About all that's left is to try to get spiritual and hope for some sort of afterlife. Not for a second chance, but for a much overdue REWARD!

Or I could just be eaten by worms.

Whatever.

I have no excuses. I was stupid, yes. I was coming out of a 5-year, on-again-off-again relationship with a hardcore drug user. Finally extricated myself from that; a friend said, "I know someone I think you'd really like." She was cute and funny, had the intelligence of a moth on LSD but I figured maybe I could help her with that.

Basically, I jumped into something new to help cleanse me from the something old. Bad plan, as it turned out.

She had her good points, but the bottom line is that there was never going to be any sort of intellectual confluence.