okay so have u ever loved someone in such a way that u start doing things u swore u wouldn't ?

like working ur day around a phone call or a visit to a point where ud drop everything to spend time with them...

You could be completely pissed off, but you hear their voice and its okay, not to mention that they know how to soothe and comfort u just the right way every time.

You're terrified that they are to good to be true, at any second they are going to walk out and your whole world will come crashing down because even though u have tried to fight it, your defenses came crashing down a long time ago.

They have a grip on u like u have never experienced before, one that strangles you... lifts u up, and drives u crazy all at once.

You're really not sure what the right thing to do is, but u know what your heart is demanding of u....even though your brain is being dragged along kicking and screaming, and you pray they don't ask anything drastic of u, because u know against ur better judgment you'll do as they ask.

You keep praying they feel remotely the same and what they do feel is sincere,..... that this wont end in your undoing.

For some reason, even though you know you should be stronger, you should fight it, you're as weak as a new born baby deer.

Yeah im there, any body else there???

nope never been there

Oh...it's a vulnerable place...this love stuff...all that fear, all that letting go.

Enjoy it.

NOW....for whatever it is.

Sure with my X and then reality set in one day .She was a figment of my own imagination !

It sucks...