Today I can feel myself crashing into another episode. One where I could skip work, lay in bed all day, and cry about things long past.

I've been leaning on too many shoulders that I sould be stearing clear from. I love my friends, sooo much. Their always there for me when I need them and we always have a blast when we're together.

I'm sure it's me. I ruin relationships. A lot. I'm not sure if it's bad judgment or what, but I really just feel like I need to get my life going, and f*** the bull s*** in between.

I'm sorry you are having a rough time with yourself. Make yourself do what you need to do for TODAY!!

Maybe look at not having a relationship for a while and getting into so counseling or at least books regarding self-esteem.

I think so many of us are or have been in your boat and tend to get in and out of that boat. Like we have to be CONSTANTLY vigilant not to fall into the same relationship traps.

Best wishes, Lady Bug!!

I have to totally agree with your advice on this. I wish you the best of luck and do what you need to do for yourself. Mcatty

Thanks guys. It helps me so much just to know that someone cares.

Stay in the forums and keep reading. You'll always find some poor bastard that has it worse than you. That always cheers me up. Good luck and smile

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