*It's a little long.. But it's my life.. The things that have shaped who I am and what not. Please no "your too young" lol I hate that comment haha. And, this is a self reflection.. I'm not seeking pitty.. Just thought I'd throw this out there. Soo Thanks for reading.. W/O further Adu.

Grew Up

Grew up
Was never good enough
For anyone
That wasn’t my grandma and grandpa
Teased and tormented
All the pain inside
Mom fighting with her boyfriend
Who treated us both like $hit
The only thing he taught me
Was how not to treat a woman
Dad never cared
About me or anything I did.
Never wanted me anyways.
I tried to get him to love me
But, alas it was pointless
Grew up
Alone
No escape
Treated like $hit everyday
Until high school
When everyone that kicked my ass
Was kissing it instead
On the field
And on the mat
They were getting pummeled
By people like me.
Grew up
Met a girl
I loved with all my heart
Asked her to marry me
Despite all the drama
I finally threw in the towel
And, regretted it
The nights I sit alone
And, think of her drive me crazy.
Met a girl I thought I’d marry.
To her I was just another guy
But, I held on
Cause’ the other one had moved on
All I had was someone that never loved me.
A dream kept me clinging
To something that never exsisted.
Because the girl that loved me
Was with someone who didn’t love her.
Still with the mind games
The illusionist still calls
Making me think she cares.
All the while she’s with some other dude.
The ex fiancée, single now.
Would never consider me again.
She has a few suitors as it is.
I F*cked up
Karma’s a b*tch
And, I don’t deserve to breathe the air I breathe.
Mainly because of the people I've hurt.
Seems no matter how many I help.
I can't account for the one broken heart.
So, in a very small nutshell.
That’s my story thus far.

DY
6-17-08

Thanks jaded

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