That I will do is ____________________________

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Why can't I set myself free?
This isn't who I want to be.
I want to laugh, joke be happy.
The walls I've built are too high.
I can't cross over I'm full of fear.
I can't let it go.
Why does my past haunt me so much?
So many things I can't remember
My lifes a blur & I've hidden it well
I've lost myself somehow & can't find me.
I feel like I'm living in hell!
I don't know who I am anymore.
I've hurt so many. Not ever remembering
what I have done. I'd take my sanity back
if only I still had some.
Just jumbled thoughts rambling.
On a message board for all to see.
Maybe this way I can set the prisoner
in me free.