hello i have to talk about this subject , i'll talk alot so read as much as u can

, i would like to tell u about a group of people who can't express their feelings to others , and if they do , people won't understand them ..and i'm talking about social phobic people not shy people
most of u don't know what's the difference between shyness and social phobia , and maybe u don't even know social phobia

shyness is character and social anxiety is a disease

i used to have hyperhidrosis since i was 4 years old , so i was avoiding people as much as i can in order not to shake their hands when i meet them because my hands used to sweat alot it's like i wash it and the water don't get dry on my hands , avoiding people caused me fear of them and i weren't go any were but school ,social phibia began to appear in the age of 15 Significantly , at 9'th grade's summwiller vacation i stayed at home 3 months without going anywhere because i was terrified of facing people , my mom tried everything in order to get me out of the house and she kept telling me that i die if i don't get out of my room " lol "

i can't tell u exactly how bad it was , the whole summer vacation i was crying on bed and wishing a mericle happens , every time i remember how i was, i feel sorry for every one who suffers from bad social phobia like the one i used to have

in the age of 16 i decided to look up on the internet for a cure ,i tried every thing like "facing the problem but the symptome didn't go " the symptoms are :Rapid heartbeat, anxiety, fear, shiver, hyperhidrosis < blushing...etc " after a while i recognized that hyperhidrosis is not a symptom , it's the cause of my social phobie

my last choice was to do ets surgery "to cut the sympathetic nurve which causes hyperhidrosis " when i told my mother she refused to do it ,, i told her thousands of times "i'm not shy i'm social phobic and if i get rid of hyperhidrosis i will cure social phobia and be normal girl like u want me to be" ..
so she accepted but the doctor refused to do me the surgery ,i went to him 8 times during one year and he refused to do me the surgery in each time

one day i went to a party and there the symptoms was hard enough to make me fall on the ground and lose my consiousness ,when i woke up i were in the hospital and there was a nice doctor , he asked me what happened and i told him my story and i told him that i need to do that damn surgery , eventually i did it

after the sugery i felt that every thing is normal , now when i meet people i don't get worried or afraid , at first it was weared it took me months to recognize that i'm normal and hyperhidrosis and blushing had gone


i want to say to every one who has social phobia please be patient , never give up , i know what does it look like ,and please don't u ever give up :)

thx for reading

i'm asking my self now why am i here ?? actually i get into chat sites in the enternet when i feel board of my life, or i want to avoid everything .... but i think i'm here because i want to change anything in my life , if i meet someone here ,i will make a change .. and that is what i want