wow i just joined and this is the first thing i seen, your not alone we just need to pull our pants back up and move on, it sux, especially when they act like its no big deal and we start to realize it was all a big lie. Thats what builds character. betrayel sux ive been stabbed in the back so many times i surprised i can still hold water, dont let them beat you, they want you to hate, because deep down they hate, they want you to be lost, because deep down they are lost, they want you to be numb, because they are numb.
in the end that sounds like a shitty existance, kill em with kindness, i cant play games either, but i sure as hell am going to love again the next fire i build is going to be even higher then this one ever was, walls are for *******, dont armer up so as not to feel the warmth of loves flame, or see the beauty of its light, or smell the sweet aroma of its burning passion. LET THEM LIVE IN THAT GREY AREA WITHOUT PASSION, yea they may be living it up now but not really because they dont really love, dont really feel, grey.....GET RED HOT GLOW THEY DIDNT DESERVE YOU ANYWAY 7 months and countless acts of treachery,deciet, basckbiting and im just now starting to get going again,take it easy,heal right,love again.

Larry