okay, so I really do not know what exactly i should do in my life. I mean i don't wanna just go with the cycle (birth-growing up-learning-job-marriage-family-death). I wanna break it I wanna do something that nobody will do< i wanna be happy and proud of what i did in my life when im 60 or 70 years old. I want to make everybody feels jealous, Is that too much to ask ? I don't know maybe the movies made my exceptions about life and lot in my personality. I know some of you will say go to a therapist and discuss these issues with him or her, but guess what a lot have happened to me in the past 4 years and they were the fastest 4 years i had and think will ever have. I choose to write everything happened to me here. just wanna take it all out. so what im gonna do is write everything here within the next few days. finally, I'm sorry for any disturbance i may do.

Thanks, A.M
PTSD

check me also. haha

well, I tried to look for the "soulmate" in many places you just name it bars, clubs, school, beach I mean every place except the north and south pole haha. anyway, I didn't find any, i just came here and this is my first profile in a dating website. but reading your post really makes me feel negative about this.