Oh wow. LOL.

So, take out the history. Ok. This is where I get a tad confused. People tell me that openness and honesty are important. I am not going for a sob story. Was just explaining where I am right now in my life, as I thought it was important info. I do very much agree though, there is too much of that, and not enough of ME. For instance , my likes. I will have to edit it slowly. I'm so used to listening and learning about others, that I never get to talk about me. It's weird, well, different is more like it. Let me practice....

I like : Horror movies, Comedies, Reggae, World music, DubStep, nature, photography, activities, anything new, happy people, children, seeing new things, horticulture (gardening, plants, and everything involved, indoor and out), outdoor activities.

I would like to do : Go to a concert, visit outside of California, hang out with like-minded and loyal people (all previous friendships have ended in either them moving away, or because they were only using me for money/food/housing/rides/etc... guess i am too trustworthy), play in the snow, and i could go on and on.

Thank you very much for opening my mind to this. Understanding people is what I truly lack experience in. I am a person, I have a personality, likes and dislikes, and I have never put them as a priority over others. That is a big problem. Lol

Thank you. I know i have many strengths, if i didn't, then i wouldn't be able to be a strong father. You are absolutely correct. As for the blue face pic, lol, that was a quick pic i took with my phone upon registering.

Thank you very much. My girls are my everything. I am a very proud father. :)

I would like to refresh this thread to it's original purpose. I was going for a Review type post, but ended up being swept away in the current of my emotions. Lol. It happens to the best of us. I am new to the 'personal' side of online posting, whereas i have always posted for work or hobby in the past. So.... please review and provide feedback. Blessed Love....

....... i am at a loss for words.

i dont let my feelings or emotions out. i only do so once i feel comfortable around someone. if you met me on the street, you would have no clue what goes on inside of me. nobody knows but me. i don't talk about myself with people. what you are reading here is what goes on in my head.

i relocated after my house went into foreclosure. took my girls with me because their mother isn't able to care for them. no where to turn but the house i was raised in as a young child. so yeah, Grandmas Boy now. got my girls into preschool, and am looking for work. everything calls for some type of experience, and customer service is not for me (severe social anxiety). It's going to take some time, i know, until i feel like myself again. Just need reassurance that i can do this, and i MUST for my girls. once again, thank you so very much for your input. :)

thank you for your honest input. it's what i really need at this point, because i am clueless. i thought women wanted honesty, but i can see where i crossed the line. wish i could try it again.... :( just feel so empty without a partner. 13 years.... that was half of my lifetime, i don't know how to function alone. i still feel like a kid, hehe.

im not meaning to associate my looks with relationships... have so much bottled up, that it all comes out in a big jumbled mess.. lol. It seems to me, all women are attracted to good looking guys, and half of these guys are douche bags that would use and abuse any chance they get. im just very confused. they want you to be open, but im like a childs closet, once open, it all falls out.

Edit: i have never been fishing. i went to the water once, and a fish jumped into my arms. i don't know how to be someone that im not.

i dont know..... i am not good with all this. i am somewhere i never planned to be in my life. no education, everything i know i have taught myself. Been living on my own since i was 17. now i must be a father and a mother... im confused.... i need REAL input, so don't hold back. i never had a relationship with my father. he let me do as i chose, and talked bad about me and my future the whole time. i never had somebody to give it to me straight. Their reasons were always "I didn't want to hurt you or make you feel bad."...... well.... thats not fair.

Seems to. I type, click post, and its written in stone. Lol. Im in the same boat with ya. Anyone got a foghorn?

A beautiful song that always brings me to tears.... Jason Mraz - Lucky

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acvIVA9-FMQ

:')

Music comes from the soul, the heart... so, when i play tracks, they reflect either how i am feeling or have felt in the past. example......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fngXJbv8lcw

Tried my hand at matchdotcom with the trial. Someone showed interest and i met her for coffee. After our meeting i sent her a text later that night. During our text exchanges i let her know that i am insecure with myself and asked her what she thought of me. She said the first thing that came to her mind was "****, he's hot.". It made me feel so good about myself.

When I was 15, i got my first girlfriend, who i fell in love with and married. She always said i was good looking, but i didn't really believe it too much because of her attractions to celebrities and models.

So, back to the point.... This girl and I have seen eachother 4 times. I treated her to dinner one night, hung at her house twice to watch movies, and we went out to a comedy show in Hollywood just the other week. The texting was daily... good morning, blah blah blah. I started to feel a little more comfortable and opened up, revealing my weakness of being alone. She comforted me with good words and we said goodnight. The next day i texted her. That's when the texts stopped. I have a gift coming in the mail that i ordered for her. It didn't arrive the day I said it would, so i shot a text saying "it didn't arrive yet, and hope she is well.". Later that day i get a response saying how busy she was and sorry she didnt reply. That was a few days ago. So i stopped texting for a few days to give her space because i feel that i may be trying too hard. Still....... nothing. I shoot another "just saying hi, hope all is well.".... still no reply....

The reason that this is posted in the Rate section is because i want to know, am i attractive? My childhood really ****ed up the way i look and feel about myself, and i beat myself down daily because of it. Also, did i scare her away? We got along great and i never once made an advance to be 'physcal' with her, because that's not what i am looking for. Don't get me wrong, its a plus, but i lead with my other head. I have been around alot of adult themes in my life (my dad had a porn shop that was a part of our home), so casual sex isn't really what i look for. A friend, a relationship, a partner, that is what i need. Wow i am going off... sorry.

You are very correct. Truth and honesty IS important. I was only being funny, but came out looking stupid. No offense intended.

I am very fond of the older ska/reggae as well. Beres is an incredible vocalist. Our sound could be described as pop to some, with Lady Gennessee's style. That worldly African vibe is also present with Ugandan dancehall artist Levy King's vibe and lyrics. It's all about positivity and human interaction. Making people feel good is our goal.... at least my goal, hehe.

Don't forget to wish Peter Tosh a happy belated birthday. ;)

I have been enveloped by this genre ever since I was introduced to it as a child. So much, that I formed a group with 3 other members this year. I am putting everything into this. Currently trying to build a studio so we can save some money. Studio time is expensive, and I could always rent it out for others to utilize as well. Need a few more pieces of equipment and then room construction begins. Also still learning Pro Tools 10. A whole new world i am jumping into and i want to learn everything. We have 2 tracks done so far, but need many more until we can market an album. All copyrighted works, so feel free to share. Let me know what you all think.

http://snd.sc/MV9ftw

Let's keep this thread dedicated to Reggae/Dancehall and variations of the genre. Feel free to post links to your favorite songs, and inspirational tracks. Blessed Love...

Depressed, confused, lonely..... could go on and on. Just try to smile and laugh through it.

Thank you for the kind welcome.

It mostly says you are fond of sushi, tacos, and most likely need a bib while dining. Good on ya mate! lmao