Yes! You understand :) thanks for sharing and helping me feel understood.

I am thinking I like Joy Division over New Order... They are both good seeing as they are the same band except I like Ian Curtis voice better as well as the bands sound when he was lead singer.

I just broke up with my boy friend of almost 6 months and that makes me laugh because the last time I had a boy friend for under 2 years was when I was in High School!!! I am sober and am coming up on a year of Sobriety. I dont mind if a guy has a couple drinks but I will not tolerate drunk BS there is a reason I got sober and it is to be away from that kind of crap as I said I just broke up with my BF because he got so angry drunk and tried starting fights with me getting very crazy and I had to leave. Serenity is what I seek. I am looking for love and to be honest is getting desperate... My heart wants to love again but, at times I feel it will never happen for me because I have not had the best of luck in relationships. As I said I am sober I work full time I workout 3-4 times a week and I go to AA at least twice a week. I am looking for someone who has the same values as me. I DON'T PLAY GAMES!!! I demand honesty and I am not looking for a ****. I want to be in love with someone who will love me back in hopes to one day get married and share a life together. I am a LEO very loyal and very strong and want the person I date to be strong willed have their **** together and know what they want. "Pleas please please let me let me let me get what I want this time" :(