Good Afternoon Fly,
I've gone through the same thing as you but with my knee. Five knee
surgeries alot of rehap and "PAIN"!!! The doc cut a nerve to the quad
muscle. I couldn't get another doc to stand up in court for me. I spent
over 2 years in a wheelchair. Everything that you described... Useless
to repeat as you said it so well.
My injury happened in 1993. I had a diffucult time with doc's telling me
the pain was in my head. I'm female.I was 42 when the injury happened,
and in a sucessfull relationship. Physically he was there all the time;
whatever I needed he was right by my side.
Chicken Little said, "The Sky Fell" lolol
I got involved in some support groups.
Seeing a counselor and being totally honest with "myself" made it easier
to be honest with the counselor. If I may be honest with you, instead of
spending negitive engery trying to figure out ways to get back at
anyone, try to rethink the situation. No one can tell you what to do, or
they shouldn't. "Congrats" for standing up to him. If that is what you
indeed did... Now go one step further. Even though he is aware of your
issues and what U are going through, "NO ONE" knows what it is like!
Until they are in your shoes.
The dispair, feeling of uslessness, the "stress" you have will get
better. Most likely for all that have disabilities will find that true
at some point. Working through your "FEELINGS" writing them down in a
notebook called Journaling may help also. Just a sugestion. Each person
has their own way of dealing with all the issues involved. I personally
found that being "Positive" was a start for me.
Everyone with a disability is faced with being different in their own
way. It may be on the outside where it can be seen or the inside where
it is hidden. People can see the outside differences. They can also see
the inside ones.
The inside ones show as anger, greif, despair, and I could continue on
with hundreds of adjitives describing the way it shows. They are only
words.
What matters is how you get involved with your disability.
I could tell you how I dealt with things. All of us with disabilities
can tell you. That doesn't mean that what we did that worked for us will
work for you.
In closing for you Fly,
Be who you are and say what you honestly feel, because those who mind
don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.
If you want to chat email me here.
nightowl...
PS...15 yrs later... I'm still disabled,and still have pain, But I've
relearned alot about myself that I thought I already knew. I am on top
of the world now."Living life" "Relax and Smile"
Owl...