Carolyn

My wife had been sick for about a year, she thought it was Irritable Bowek Syndrome. We moved into a smaller apartment at her request and she used to make statements like "This is a good place for you if something happens to me" etc. It seemed that she made a concerted effort to ensure everything was perfext. She bought new furniture, she asked me to take her places we only talked about before, she made peace with my family which didn't ever seem possible. When she finally was diagnosed with colon cancer, it had already spread,

Believe it or not, she had a major operation and chemo and it disappeared and she went back to work for three months. Then we found out it had spread to her liver. This time the chemo didn't work and she had a liver operation. Again the cancer was all gone, but within 10 days, on the night she looked at me and told me she loved me and thanked me for being in her life, she collapsed and I drove her to the hospital. I was there next to her bed in the emergency room and she said "Peter, go home and rest, you have the rest of your life ahead of you. I will be alright." I did and that is the last time I saw her alive.

I have felt guilty ever since that I wasn't with her when she died, but I think she wanted me to prepare for the rest of my life knowing hers was ending.

It has been four years and I still have all of her stuff. I think if I get rid of it part of me will die. That isn't true of course but that is how you feel. We have to realize we were individuals before we met and we still are, but we are better individuals because of that person we loved and we believe left far too early.

Your poetry is really nice, I think you will do OK. You seem like a really nice person. God bless.

I am a widower. I lost my wife to cancer four (4) years ago. I gather from reading, I am a newbie, but I sure don't feel that way.

How do you really get back into the game? I mean finding someone new? Is it as hard I have experienced or am I just going about it wrong?

I'm not a youngster, but I have a lot to give and a lot of years to give. I have a meaningful job, I have family close by and see them often, but there is just something missing.

I am assuming Gwen was your wife? My wife died four years ago and I wish she would visit sometimes but she hasn't. That is what I find most scary, why some people can experience and others can't. You have to wonder what is really out there?

I think I believe as well. But I think you have to be receptive to experience a lot of it. I really believe that a part of our brain is tuned into this but most of us haven't taped into or developed that part of our brain.

Anyone else like watching it? What do you think? I'm undecided, never had an experience myself.

I live in New Jersey, I'm widowed, and I want to meet a lady close by because I'm not rich, I can't afford and don't want to travel everywhere to meet someone, and it seems that New Jersey is devoid of women.

I know that isn't true, so it must be me. I am me, nothing else. I talk too much, I joke too much and I probably think I am a treasure, but we all know that that is not the truth.

Sure I can be picky, but isn't evryone? Give me some clues on how to go about this without appearing desperate or coming across like a dirty old man.

I promised the oil companies and the government that the day after they did I was with them 100%

Well, well. What are you doing tonight? I'm sorry, I'm sorry I forget myself at times.

Oh my God! They said there were two women from Joizy and they both were kidnapped, One checked in a while ago. This is great, you escaped too. Are you OK? Now that both of you are safe I feel much better. lol

Yeah? I would have thought otherwise.

Welcome Arizona. Beautiful hair color

You #10+. lol both inside and out

You too.

Hi everyone. This is a fun thing. I asked the Jersey girls to check in and only one did. That means all of you beautiful and classy ladies must be from somewhere else.

If you just want to have a little fun before you leave on that gorgeous vacation with that special someone, just say Hi and where you are from. lol

That is definitely how its done. If only they would listen.

Deb: 22 people have viewed this (meant to be funny posting) and only you have responded. The only thing I can say is thanks for breaking free from those kidnappers. Now if the other girl would only check in, I'll know both of you are safe. Have a great Memorial Day weekend!!!

Don't let it get you down. Be careful in the beginning. Sometimes they are like wild dogs sniffing a fresh meal.
You are very good looking and I am sure that is inside as well as outside. Take your time, don't settle.