back in November, I fell in love with a beautiful little quarter horse mare. we discovered she had been rescued from a kill pen. I decided that I was going to be her special someone. my coach even let me help name her. fast forward a month or so - it turns out she's pregnant.

I graduated high school and spent the next week and a half at the barn, waiting for the baby to come. on May 29, I move away from home to my own place. on May 30, my coach sends me the message that he finally came that morning. (horses have the most perfect timing) I raced back home and arrived at night in the middle of a rainstorm. I ran into the barn and found them in the stall in the back - mama Lindy and baby Jitterbug.

so here's the plan: get a full time job, work my rear end off, remember my motivation, and bring my baby girl and her baby boy down in the fall.

the end ... for now.

Dear samatvam, I believe that intercourse outside of marriage is wrong. I am 18 years old, yet I already know what I want in a spouse. I believe marriage is a special bond between a man and a woman. In a world where everyone shares everything with everyone everywhere online, I have chosen to keep the law of chastity as a way to save the most special part of me for my future husband. If I were to give away that part of me as well, what would I have left to give to the man I love? and how would I know that he truly loves me if he gives himself away?

not only is there the concern of a healthy relationship, but also the health of your physical wellbeing. why risk an std just to say you did the dirty? like, why? I want to enjoy life for what it has to offer me, not be concerned about whether the first/next time is the last time.

I hope this makes sense. let me know if you have any further questions.

- Abby