We have never met but yet you seem to read me like a book. I have suffered from trust issues but I've learned to no matter what look people in the eye. Just because I may not trust them, they still deserve my trust and I give them no reason to not trust me.

I liked it alot. Nice job.

Thank you for the support Teddybear

Hey I want to invite you to check out "My Poems" by me. lol. But if you would read them and let me know what you think.

"So I Wait"

So I wait.
I sit and wait in this dark room.
Waiting for a light, a voice, a touch.
So I wait.
This room is so cold.
I can feel my fingers throbbing and toes going numb.
So I wait.
I have no idea what is going to happen.
Who is out there.
Can you hear my pleas.
I yell for help, hoping for an answer.
And Still I wait.
I stand and begin to walk to what I think is in front of me.
Is there a wall I can touch.
A chair so I can sit.
Is this a room or am I trapped in a hole.
It is cold, quiet and dark.
There is no one around.
Should I pray for my release.
Or can God hear me in this place.
Still I wait.
So I pray.
God, if you can hear me.
This place is cold and my feet are gone.
My hands are freezing and I'm losing time.
I give you my life in hopes for a better place.
I repent my sins and ask for foregiveness.
Father you are my life and I your temple.
After praying in this dark and lonely place.
I realize that I was never alone.
I just needed to acknowledge that God was with me.
And He set me free with no scars, bruises or broken bones.
So I tell you don't sit and wait.
Make a stand and ask Christ to be your savior.

Hey cuppy, I to am a little bored but I am about to go patrol so that won't last long. But anyway just wanted to say hi.

Yeah T. that's why I'm here too. Broadening my search. Besides that I live a glass ball of a town. Its so small and I really don't want to date anybody from there. So that brings me here.

Hey Al, how ya doin? You doin fine? Well my name is Brian and its nice to meet ya.

I guess my day job it is then. lol. no hard feelings just crushed dreams of being a great poet. O well gotta catch the bad guys now.

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thank you

Okay... First I am not angry. Second... thank you for clearing that up. Third... No matter what someone does to you, you should not hate them. The biggest way to attack someone is LOVE. If someone is attacking you with hatred, show them love. Maybe they are attacking because they have not been love and if you attack back with hatred then you are "adding fuel to the fire" and at times showing love still adds fuel to the fire but mostly it shows the attacker that there is some people who feel the same way and it gives them hope. As for your father, I'm sorry you lost him. Sure there are alot of excuses in the world but why is that? Because humans don't know how to search for the truth. I am big at making excuses and I know an excuse when I hear it. But I also like to find the truth so one day I don't have to make excuses. Please accept my appology and just know that I took what you were saying as an attack to the Savior. I might have been wrong.

Are they any good or should I stick to my day job?

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I insult at times I do it cause it is my own thought but I feel bad for it up until someone sees me with all my tattoos and piercings and they give me the you don't belong in the room look.
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I am a black man with alot of white friends. When I go out with them or to their family events it is usually all white people there maybe a handful of black people. I get the "you don't belong in this room look" all the time but I don't judge those people. I make friends almost everywhere I go. It is your decision to judge. I know it is easy to do so but to fight the temptation is a true miracle of God. I'm not perfect. I do at times judge. And I'm not sayig I don't. But where I make up for not judging, I lack in other temptations. What you are doing is making excuses.

I believe that MAN being of Human, can not accept the fact the MAN did not create the world as we know and is trying to go around the truth(God is the creator). Scientist find clues every day of Bible time artifacts and try to explain away the truth. Even someone who was raised "Christian" turns away from his/her beliefs because they have a week soul. The Bible says a week soul is easily decieved. And we all know that Satan is the ultimate deciever. Yes there are alot of great points and everyone has their own belief, but what greater point is that of the Master's own words. Now some may not believe that the bible is God's words. True it was written by a men; but it is these men that saw Jesus and witnessed the miracles, power, mercy and judgement of God. Job lived a life of scourn because Satan couldn't accept the fact that Job was a man of God. Everything that happened to Job was not the work of God but that of Satan, God only allowed it to happen. When something bad happens to us, what do we say? O' God why are you doing this to me? Instead we should say, 'Satan I will not allow you to come between me and my God.' If we acknowledge God he will protect us. Instead of cursing God for everything bad that happens to us, we should thank him that it is not as bad as it could've been. It is my opinion that we stop trying to explain why things are the way they are because God has already done that. We need to start accepting the way things are and when we do God will do major works in our lives. I have to go for now but if you want to hear more let me know and I will be back. Remember this is all my opinion no fact except what you read in your bible. Belief or not. Its in there.

"These Tears"

Thoughts of suicide over take my mind.
Like someone running up from behind.
And putting to my head a tech 9.
Then blast, my life goes so fast.
These tears in my families eyes are equal to fears inside.
I've never done anything but try to a good friend.
And it's like they say: A friend 'til the end.
But a friend will do you in.
These tears I cry from hiding in the darkness are the things I'd call the hardest to ever let go of.
So I thank the Lord above and still I cry.

"I Cry"

I CRY- Beautiful lady I bever saw you coming but when I finally realized, it was to late to start running. Running from what? At the time I would not have known, but maybe just maybe the gun from which my brains would've been blown.

I CRY- For this girl my heart is filled with love for she is the angel God sent from above.

I CRY- I thought ovre time I might get over it, but I can't not even a little bit. I have nothing in the world but love for you, please believe me girl this is the truth.

I CRY- I have hated myself for the promise I broke and for that it is me who should choke.

I CRY- Many times I have thought of suicide but it just isn't right for me to take my life.

I CRY- I've tried and tried time after time and I can't seem to get it off my mind but just can't see them coming down my eyes, so I got to make this poem cry.

I CRY!!!!

"Love"

Today was the saddest day of my life.
All I did was cry.
My love, that love won't be my wife.
So I guess this is a sad good bye.
My heart now is filled with pain.
For I will never feel that love again.
That love, this love I will feel no more.
But in my heart, only my heart, that love I will store.
I suppose for her life will just flow.
But for me, life has nowhere to go.
I'm sorry for any pain I might have caused.
And for any moment of your life I paused.
I guess in time our hearts will heal.
But nothing can change this love I feel.
I'm sorry for ever letting you down.
And now I'm forced to take off my crown.
For you will always be my Queen.
But I shall never again be a King.
I hope the next will feel your heart with joy.
But please, O' please never forget your baby boy.

"Truth"

To all in all you are my life
Without you this world just wouldn't be write.
I stay up late to tell this story
Because I don't know how much longer til I don't have to worry.
I love you all with every bit of my heart
Even if I didn't tell you before we part.
If this is the last time we speak before I go
There's just one thing I want you to know.
Friends we were and friends we were not
But I give you my life and every breath I got.
When I go don't miss me at all
Cuz I'll be in heaven having a ball.
Just remember any moment I spent with you
Was never false but always true.
In the witness of the Father above
For you my heart is filled with love.
Now go and spread the news of death
But remember that I still have one last breath.

"All Of Me"

I give you my heart which is all of me,
I give you my love but we still won't be,
I'll give you my life and what does this mean,
It means you now have a love that you have never seen.
A love so true he is reminded of you,
Of your smell your laugh your smile your touch,
One day with you is more than enough.
My love for you is overwelmed phenominally,
For I give you my heart which is all of me.

"My Heart"

I love you with all my heart
A day is a day wasted when we are apart.
I can't stand to know that you're not my girl
but it would hurt worse if you
Were to know that you're not in my world.
You are the one reason I am alive, so I grit my teeth and swallow my pride.
I can't live without you as a friend or a love, as a mortal from earth or an Angel from above.
Your love is the heart that beats in my chest, to have you in my life
Means I am truly blessed.
Like a hungry soul my heart needs to feed, and like an open wound this Poem needs to bleed.
I have one answer to the question why, because I love you and still I cry. You'll never know how much you mean to me and how much I love you my Sweet baby.


"Painful Pleasure"

As I walked through the valley of the shadow of death, I could see its figure and smell its breath.
He stood tall and slouched, His body half human and half serpant with a forked tongue in its mouth.
As he stood in the shadows of my fate, He drew me in with a sad look on his face.
The closer I approached, A knot began to form in my throat.
There were bodies scattered below and above,
His eyes were stained with the color of blood.
I could feel his eyes gazing straight through me,
Only my soul and nothing else he could see.
Closer and closer he drew me to his arm,
With the look in his eye to cause me no harm.
I could not hide the fear for he smelled it on my skin,
He smiled as if to sooth me before a lake of fire he threw me with in.
Now I am stuck burning alive,
With the look of desperation in my eyes.
I can't get out there's nowhere to hide,
I guess this is the place God chose for me to die.
But I don't give up and I don't lose my faith,
Which is when my savior comes to take my place.
He wraps me in his arms, And asures me no harm.
And when I wake up in bed,
I thank God I'm not dead.

"Christ's Love"

In Christ the heart is pure no doubt,
In sin the pureness is thrown about,
To not love only Jesus Christ,
Your heart the Father will truly smite,
But to lust and love the soul of another,
To let die the soul of your brother,
To perish without making witness to your friend,
Is utterly a foolish sin,
To find your love,
You must look inside,
For this comes from the Son above,
Who will bless you with the love that hides,
This is the love that every man needs,
The love which through Christ no man sees,
I search for this love that only Christ holds,
For through Christ my story be told,
You search and search for a love so true,
But look to Christ, who has a love for you.
By Brian Johnson