And she likes long walks on the beach, she's a Cancer....

ROFLMAO!

Well, thank you all, I've got my answers, my roommate says thank you. lol.

GOT ANY DRUGS? LOL

Your probably right, but I also feel free, I'm doing something about my weight, and its actually working. YAY!

HAH! See, when I first started this post, I weighed X lbs, and now I weigh one less lb. It works. I've lost a lb from typing, lol.

I can afford to go days without eating. I've done it for a week and lost 10 lbs.

But that's for me, not any guy.

I havent had anything to eat all day, the most I've had all week is 3 slices of pizza and 2 breadstix, and that was BAD. I've been drinking a lot of water, so I'm crossing my fingers.

Randomness, it's gravy.

It isn't just about him, it's everything. I want to cry about everything wrong with me.

I want to cry so bad, I know it would make me feel better!

There is something wrong with me! I want to cry, I can feel the tears, they're right there! But none show up. It's like a hair is holding them back. Why can't I cry?

I already knew that. But is there a way of being something other than booty call?

Actually, I am a true gamer, and he's not. His brother is, but he's the kind of guy who would rather go play outside. lol

I didnt mean to say that. lol. "how do I get him back." I meant to say, how do I get him. lol. Sorry, I know what your saying, and I do believe you, but I want him. I dont know why him, I know I think he's cool, and cute, even though most girls dont think so...

Well, to know what I need help with, you have to know what happened, lol. I went to a bar couple of weeks ago, and met some of my customers from work, we didnt plan to meet, they just showed up. Never hung out with them before, well, One of them, Ryan we'll call him, talked to me more. We hung out all night, and everything was great, but then they got me to drink, and I know I only had 2 1/2 beers, but I'm seriously a light weight, and I got drunk, I told them I was only buzzed, but I think they knew better, lol. Ne ways, I ended up going home with Ryan. We hung out, and he kept asking me if I was talking to anyone, as in guys, I kept telling him no, not knowing where he was going with it. Well, short story, we slept together, not full intercourse, cuz we didnt have a condom, which is also confusing, cuz I was so drunk that I didnt care, but he did. Usually guys dont care, but he did, which I didnt know if to take that as a bad sign. Even right before we started, we were laying in bed and he asked me again if I was talking to ne one. -guys- We did it, slept, played around the next moring, he had to go to work, I fell asleep. We met up again last week and had actual sex, gave me his number cuz he didnt call me, and told me to call on Monday. But him and his ex might try to work things out. I knew that was a bad sign. lol. Well, Monday comes around and he calls me. Just to tell me that him and his ex are trying to work things out. I told him that I was happy for him, but I wanted to scream. Then he invited me to the bar this week, which I'm pretty sure was a pitty invite. I dont know what to do. I am also pretty sure that he's not trying to get with his ex, it was just a way of saying, "I'm just not that into you." What do I do? I feel like I want to cry, but the tears just wont come. I'm just grateful that I didnt love him, or was in love with him. But I did like him. I liked hanging out with him. How can I get him back? Of course not right away, pfft, I am going to lose weight before I plan on seeing him again.

Well, I'm not talking about skirts and crap, I'm talking about, do guys like girls who are smart, who read, who can party, what?