So...when I was an early teenager, I wrote this. No, it's not about me. It's not about anyone I know. I was just bored and randomly wrote stuff down. It's a bit morbid, I guess you could say, but possibly has a good message to it. I think the poem explains itself, but I could be wrong. It doesn't have a title.


A suicidal love is what I feel for thee
Love worth killing every single thing
I'd do anything to feel your tender kiss
Slitting wrists for your eternal bliss
Have you no faith in my masochistic ways?
Cutting my flesh to be close to your face
I have no desire to please any one but you
For your lustful blood there is nothing I won't do
Schizophrenia is no longer like a curse
Everything I feel makes me bleed worse
The knife I hold goes deep into my flesh
To die for you is the only thing I wish
Deep inside myself rampid thoughts run free
Why am I doing this? Are you meant for me?
My doubts get me feeling like I've been betrayed
After all of done and the many times I've prayed
I realize that suicide is not a rightful love
I should be free and flying high like a dove
All the rage I feel inside turns into a dust
I've finally learned you are not to trust
All you wanted me for was you own deep desires
To toss my dying corpse into the hottest fires
You never loved me, you wanted me for joy
I was your ever loyal masochistic toy
The light is shining on the dew-filled dawn
What you are doing to me is more than wrong
Faithlessly, I lie awake searching for the truth
Laughing, I think of the stupidity of youth
One thing I can say that I know to be true
Deep inside myself I never loved you

I'm burned out on pizzas around here. Seems to be all my family wants to eat. I think I may turn into a pizza.

It's still good, though!

I'm more a pie person than a pizza one, personally.

Think I look funny with it? I look funnier without it.

I thought that's why it was called the "about me" section? :-P

So...anyone think I should make my profile shorter?

You ARE bad!

"She's my cherry pie..."

Let's see:

-Must know how to spell. Poor spelling is a HUGE pet peeve.
-Must be female.
-Must be honest. Such a hard trait to find. Many people claim to be and many people get proven wrong.
-Must have morality. Once again, hard to come by.

Oh, and most importantly...must like pie!

Cold pizza? Okay, if you wish...

I think we need to decide on just two or three kinds so we can keep it simple.

Pepsi and breadsticks shall abound.

Offering pizza again. Any takers?

So those of you that I talk to regularly or I have talked to in the past...or those of you that don't even know who I am, but still read this:

I don't have the internet at home, anymore, so the only times I'll be on will be when I'm at my friend's house. Therefore, if you message me and it takes me a while to reply, that's why.

Heh heh heh. Yeah, I put up that pic before I left, but I kinda strayed away from the boards a bit before I deactivated my account. I just got too busy to come. It happens to us all, eh?

Thank you, everyone.

I have returned from my hiatus. Although, I don't think anyone noticed. I just thought I'd bring attention to it.

Send him e-mail.

I think I'd have a hard time loading ****atiels, budgies, quail, pheasants, chickens, ducks, geese, pigeons, dogs, cats, fish, and other assorted odds and ends on a plane without it costing more than buying the place to live.

That's only what I have now...I've had so much more.

I may not look it, but I am country through and through. I could never stand to live in a large town, much less a city!

I was raised into farm life and farm life is where I intend to stay.

I guess that's why I'm so behind on my goals and whatnot...I refuse to move where my animals can't go.

I'd like a nice coffee with plenty of cream and sugar.

I don't want to sound presumptuous, but I like to think I'm a good guy? I could be wrong.

Lately, some of my e-mails I receive disappear after I read them without me physically deleting them.

Also, sometimes, when I go to IM someone, it says I have blocked them. I have to click unblock every time even if I never blocked the person to begin with.

Anyone else experiencing this, or is there a logical explanation?

Does anyone else see this as an example? aubreymaylee Look up that user.