honestly does any man know until its to late...

one thing to note I have felt hate, and i do feel sympathy,and even empathy..I can ,do & have other peoples enotions jump me,

I do tend to dream some are great tell me things that are to come,people I will meet,events,happenings,ETC,but just for my life,or people in it.

other times I have more of nights terrors.things that i wish I neber saw..and won't tell a soul..especially the 1 its about..

memories..I have several..some blocked..others changed.or differ from say the other who sat beside me..2 sides to every story ,as it goes..

I sometimes hate being in public cause I have to ask myself is what i'm feeling truely my own emotion or not.
Even living with somone that I love when connected to them,I know what they feel,and it bothers me when they are disturbed in some way..I know its not my emotion,If they won't talk..well then usually fights ensue..thus the problems start..See my delima..I am just starting to figure this one out..over the years.I have tried to tell them.but they believe me not till ists to late..or if they do.they can't handle it..its hard to when someone knows you way to well way to early..

hun I understand I just got out of a relationship with a guy who said he loved me,and has wanted to be with me for 20 years And I him long story there,My 1st crush & all and all lot of inbetween,but finally I /we believed our time had come,well he turns out to have been lying a lot about so many things not just 1 or 2,but a long list ,we lasted about 6 months 5 of which we lived together..and where planning the rest of our lives together.. now its been a weeek that he been gone.and almost 5 days and not a word..
He is just very selfish..Your a beautiful woman,there is a man for you,just not him..Wait,the pain will numb,I wont say it will pass.or that it will ever go away for ever ,but you will learn to live with it..and the anger will pass to,at yourself & him..Just be gald that you found out now & not later,,I am ..though I still have feelings for him.I always have,I probably always will,I mean I have loved him for 20 years,before I had him in my arms,when I did it was crazy & scary..and Idont know what else..But I'm sorting through it,He's something to me.But I'm not sure what yet..He has alot of issuses that he has to work through,before he can do anything,I see it,I see the real him & knows it..Though I never cared about any of it..I think it bothered him..but you must 1st like or be homest with yourself before you can be with anyone else,and trust me he's found a good/bad way to hide his pain..

right now I feel?!? anger,pain,hurt,fusteration,remosrse,Happiness,hope,faith I have & do still fill love..believe I will be able to find it keep it and be able to stay deeply in it one day,I can hold on tightly to it, its the other person that don't see as I do.thats the problem,i have very different views on the world,life dreams,love,hope,forgiveness,everything,trust I have issues with..,and any given other emotion that may pop up depending on the current moment..I am curreetly Pis*ed & Hurt at myself & someoneat this present time..but moving on.As best & fast as I can..Going to a concert tonight,see what that holds..need to get out & live,do what i can to get him off my mind,I know the one I seek,The one I've ben shown in my dreams is out here,just have to wait..for him to find me..somehow ..someway..someday..and I will wait..

well kinda sorta in the same boat here ,we had just seperated a few days before it happened a week ago today I made him leave, but we still tring to make things 'WORK',them he came and got his stuff earlier this week.but started being a JERK.. think mo I know he just wanted to get out of his part of the bills so he dent he an ugly text message or to & I did i the same ,him result I told him off & leave me alone,cause he wouldn't.sorry on his part i think..and naturally there there is/ was a lot said done that i cant & wont put here,But I go through days of being mad,angry,hurt at him & myself for a varity of different reasons...

a gothic rose for all my mingle friends

aw I could think of a lot of things that I love to do on a rainy day or night.especialy during thunderstorms.. But I'm talking..thats for me to know..and only my future lover to find out

I want to talk to you FABO


AW MIRROW NOW I'm jealous

I STILL MISS MY (EX) BUT MY AIM IS GETTING BETTER!!

Can anybody direct me to the boots & shovels please??

Will you Marry me - Alabama

heartpounding

well not random , but I got a new kitten 2-day ,my daughter brought home a stray,from the house up the road,it has a lot of strays..UGh..well anyway..We named he MORTICA..her other cat she named NIGHTMARE..I think my girl is a little disturbed...LOL

HUH what ? comfused..I tend to have a lot of random thoughts..Most of which happen in a flash..
Hush voices or I'll poke you with a Q-tip again...

well it could be packed we clove leaves..but i'm allergic!!found out the hard way after thay were but in once..but had a dry socket once & thats what they used...peach brandy numbs the gums also..buts clove leaves will stay with gauze...

i like them..

So sorry LL but at least you found out early that he was a LOSER.. and it didn't take you 5 months..Keep telling myself next I will get it right..Hum..gotta learn to listen to that little voice that says RUN!!! hes not right..in stead of saying way not give it a chance..GEEZE!! I have a great 6th sense if only I would LISTEN ..But alas.. it will all work out everything for a reason..He's not the 1 for you..Not Good enough for You.. He lost out..NOt you...Never Doubt that.HUN!!

HI MIRROR !!
Hi LL,HI EveryBody

a pink & black night tank top,black knit short shorts,flip-flops

tell me please is there a tattoo on my forehead that only guys can read.. that says I only like a-holes ..and how do I get the dang thing off???