Sorry I don't even like to text so to type something like this was hard enough with all that was swerling around in my head thanks for the reply and the welcome

For starters I didn't say I have a small dick I said I have an average size dick and if that means small to you then congrats. And how are you going to get a true opinion if you lie about the circumstances?

Thank you so much for the response I have recently found out that she has been on different dating sights and has begun a practice of doing sexual favors for monetary gain. I think my life is over I loved her with all I had and she just threw it away.

she maid the decision to keep me in the marriage by having more kids and by doing other things she would never even compromise on before and there is nothing about this story that is made up as I have said in my other posts I was just being honest and if your going to get correct answers ( not just what you want to hear ) I feel you have to be honest and disclose any information pertaining to you question I thank you for your reply though and hope I didn't make you upset

I'm sorry if you took it as complaining but I wasn't I was just trying to get good answers that pertained to my question and in order to do that I just stated the facts

I wasn't bragging I was just trying to be honest and how am I going to get an informed opinion if I don't give all the facts

isaac_dede I appreciate the posts even the ones I don't like but I tried to be as honest as I could be that is why I included my sexual history and no I am not saying I am a sex god I was just saying I don't take sexual ventures lightly and I'm not saying anything bad because I don't know you but if that is how you took that then it would seem that maybe you might have unsolved issues yourself and she didn't only loose her sexual drive when she was pregnant and if she didn't want more than one kid she should have told me and I would have had to stay or go but at least I would have had the choice I put myself out there so I could get an honest answer from a woman you know someone who might be able to tell me there personal experience and about me cheating on her is not the case I had talked to her before I left the house and I didn't do anything with anyone till I was out of the house and we were separated I have never cheated on her unlike her she never said anything just up and one day ripped my world apart with no warning in fact just the apposite she was acting like we was happier than ever and now she has done it twice

Thank you for the kind words but just as my mother, my sister, & our friends would tell me stuff she would say and do behind my back. I chose to go on not believing them, she would look into my eyes and deny and call them liars. They were just trying to start stuff between us and I believed her up to and including loosing relationships. I will try to be strong but I don't know if I can be that strong. Thank you again and hope you had a good new years.

I thank you for your impute and concern for my children we do not fight or argue in front of our children. I do admit to making poor judgement calls when it comes to my wife but never in the way I treat her. Before I got to the point of hating her I talked to her every day about what was missing in our relationship. She never talked to me or let me know she was unhappy and that is what blew my mind I felt like I got hit by a bus. My number one priority is how my children perceive our relationship and that they feel love and support from both of us. I cant say I know how this is going to work out or how its effecting them. I can only pray God watches over them in my absence and helps them to understand so they don't grow up and make bad decisions. I came from a broken home and remember my mother having different men in our lives. Every time she seemed steady and we had a home she would break it off. I think that's where my devotion to trying to make this work comes from. I don't want my children growing up in a house like that

Thank you for the response, the one good thing about going over during the new year was that if something happened she couldn't claim that. After we had our youngest we had been talking and we decided to go for 6 children rather than 4. She got pregnant again but she is a diabetic and she didn't watch her counts and lost the baby ( the doctor said her counts being so high was the likely culprit ) so we talked again and decided we were happy with 4. She was thinking about getting her tubes tied but instead I offered to get clipped so she wouldn't have to go through the pain of a procedure. Wasn't a year latter she messed around.

Thank you for the reply, I had always wanted to be the one to make her happy it brings me joy making her happy. Many times it would only be about her and that made me happy that is why I have such a hard time accepting it but hearing it from someone who knows and can explain it as you did helps, thank you again

one of the first things I do is look at myself I asked her to do couples counseling or to do counseling separately and she flat out said no

I was doing good with putting punctuation in most time I just write one big sentence but thanks for the look

I have been married for 16yrs and it has been a hard time I have 4 children ranging from 5 to 15 3 girls and a boy. The relationship started with a chance encounter and I think I loved her as soon as I seen her. I was totally in love with her, she was my whole world I didn't even see another woman and it wasn't a decision I made it was like no other woman existed. She got pregnant we got married with in a week we had only been dating for around 10 months I had already proposed so we were to be married in September but we got married in January. I am around a year younger than her I was on my own at 17 she was still living with her mom and dad when I met her and they still took care of her insurance and they told her how to spend her money and so on and so forth. Before I met her I had a lot more sexual partners than she had but I didn't boast about it but I was proud I had never had to ask for a second piece of tail. I am not well endowed I am average where I excel is my attention for my partner I will not finish until my partner finishes at least once multipole times is what I go for. She destroyed my ego in short time. I had to beg her for sexual attention by the time she was in her first trimester. When she found out she was pregnant I was happy and smiling because I was going to bring life into this world with the woman of my dreams she was crying. I found out latter in our marriage that she resented me for "steeling her child hood" and that is why she treated me like **** for the first 3 years. Just before my daughters 3rd birthday I found out she was taking birth control when she had been acting and telling people we were trying to add to our family. The first 3 years of our marriage was plagued with frustration for me I wasn't married to her she was married to her parents and I was along for the ride. After I found out her lie I found out about a lot of lies and she had me to the point I didn't like her anymore but I was willing to keep the marriage for my little girl. She promised me she would quit taking the birth control so I took her at her word and for another 2 years she did not get pregnant. By this time I had had enough I hated her when I would think of having to be married to her for the rest of my life my stomach would turn and I am not being melodramatic I would get physically sick to my stomach from the thought. I started to wonder and think about divorce and I saved up some money in the mean time I had met a woman where I worked as soon as I knew what was going to happen I told my wife about her and I moved out not to mention I am a man of many words as you can tell I had been telling her I was unhappy for years. I started seeing the other woman while I rented a room off of my best friend. My wife did a complete flip she did everything I had been telling her about and after time she re won my heart so I broke it off with the other woman and moved back in with my wife not to mention as soon as she found out about the other woman and I was going to divorce her she was pregnant by the 3rd month. The only reason we were still having sex is because I am week and when I would go to see my daughter she would throw herself all over me. I didn't have the balls to tell her to stop I would try to turn it into something funny and brush her off but she wouldn't let go until I would start kissing her and I am a man I love to please her. Fast forward 5 years everything is going good in our marriage and family we now have 4 children ( from her wanting). There is nothing to give a sign something was wrong I would ask her if everything was ok and she would say yes. One night I get a text from my best friends wife asking why my wife was texting her husband about taking off his shirt. I ask my wife tell her we can work through anything as long as she is honest she admits they had been seeing each other for 2 months then nothing but lies start. After 2 years of questioning I finally get the whole story or at least that is what I am told. We go another 3 years and I fall and tear the muscles and ligaments in my left leg and am in the hospital for 10 days with an abbsess. While I'm in the hospital I get a call from my second oldest daughter "daddy do you know we are moving" my kids are my life. I ask my wife about it and she admits she is moving out and taking the kids with her this woman I have never hit or treated badly and have given her the benefit of the doubt when she lied and cheeted on me. I call her babydoll and beautiful and tell her every day how much I love her and need her and the kids. She moves into a house that one of her friends from work have set up for her I try to talk to her to try to find out how to fix this. I find out just yesterday that not only is she lieing to me about just needing time away and we will work everything out and for me to not do anything I would regret that my wife has been out on 3 dates with 2 guys from a dating website that she had met another in a parking lot but didn't go on the date because she thought he was ugly and has a boy "friend" that has given her a flat screen tv a wii my oldest daughter a lap top computer and has spent time with my children all while I sit at my sisters healing and thinking of the future. This is gonna sound ridicules but the thing that hurt the most out of all of this is I find out the reason we had not had sex in the last 3 months of our living together and now 5 months all together is because she bought herself a ***** the first one was my size now she is using one that is 8 1/2 inches long and is proud to tell me she uses all of it in the front and back. She has asked me to work this out with her that's how I found out what I have, I had told her I needed to know the truth and that is what she tells me. The new year is upon us and she has asked me to come over and stay the night from the 31st to the 1st and wants to be intimate and I want to but how am I to pleas her now I am no where near that big I am 6 inches how am I to compete with her toy can any woman tell me if you were using something like that would you even be able to be pleased by some one my size and if so can you tell me how that can be ?