Its not always about sex.

i dont think this was as big of a deal as it seams, I mean the marage that took place that made us related on paper only lasted a cuple of years.2 at the most. It was a very short lived marage.
and its not like we lived together or anything.
Any way i called her up and askd her out to dinner. she asked if i was still married and I told her we were seperated and she said: as long as I'm not a rebound she'go. I asked her if it was a weird for her and she said, : hunny let me tell you somthing. I'm not the girl you once knew, and you dont sound like the guy I used to know. I never realy considered us related throgh that sham of a marage, it was retuarded anyway.

So i guess I need to get me a haircut and trim my beard up now, and toss a coat of wax on the lexus.


This is a big relief to me, because i was kinda talkin to some chick throgh email that I suspected was her and probly said somthing I shouldnt have. It turns out, that wasnt her thank god. But the chick I was talkin to probly thinks im some nut job, because I was positive it was her. o well, she's not the 1st person to think I was a litle off.

It is a litle weird,

buts even harder to explain the big picture. It is just unfortunat about the curcomstances that we were put in when we were teens.

ok, here goes.

theres this girl that I have had fealings for for about 15 years. she Is single atm and so am I. The problome Is that we kinda sorta were related thru a marage a long time ago. the marage ended in a death of one of the 2 and now were not related at all. I guess you could say i was her step Uncle, but only a cuple years older than her. I have been out of her life for 12 years and been on the other side of the country for 8. i ran into her a few times and realy had to restrain myself from telling her how i feal. She was very happy to see me, she was a litle drunk and well, lets just say i know that there is a chance from her actions. I think there was always somthing there but it was always kinda forbidden, but you can sence things. were both all grown up now and I think i could make her very happy. I dont want to go throgh life regreting risks that I didnt take, but i am realy not sure how she would take this.
Im gona act on this, I need to know. but my question is, should I slowly start spending time with her, more and more and eventualy ease into it, or should I just throw myself on the table?
i dont want to wait till it is too late.

how about someone that just got out of the armed forces?
i still have all my uniforms too, lol. but I tell you what, i make a hell of alot more money now. Would never go back.