nicely put

cool I can live with that.. the other gives me reason to wonder about my self and my life..

listen to that dream or intuition.. mine has almost never been wrong.. and i always lose if I don't listen

I think in the end we all live the life we planned on living in order to learn what ever we came here to learn.. I think we each were born with our own itinerary... although I dont think any details are planned or fated..

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If we were all blind, then we could truly see people for who they are.. wow that would change the world

sorry im still learning how this works.. white was the other color.. flashes of white kinda irredesent... wierd about the colors.. lavender and blue have been my favorite colors all my life..

I only remember seeing the blue although it was irridecent kinda white lights flashing thru it.. why would an archangel leave you feeling happy?

wow i hope I never see something like that, although i've heard angels really look like gargoyles..

Has anybody else out there been hit by a blue ball of light? this is going to seem really wierd, but when I was 23 or so I was pregnant with my third and resting on my couch, when a blue ball of light came thru the window and hit me... It didn't hurt, it didn't make any noise, but it left me feeling very very happy and content.. and I still have that feeling 90% of the time.. I wasnt't sleeping so it wasn't a dream.. I often wonder if it was a guardian angel trying to reassure me, or something like that.. My parents and my husband thought it could have been lightning. (I still don't think so) I've ran into 2 people since then (and that was 26 years ago) who've had similar experiences. but then.. I've never put it out there on a discussion forum either..

I bought a house 10 years ago that had a dark presence in it, when we moved in we all heard a rough male voice say "just another f--- whore" there was nowhere anyone could have been hiding except the crawl space so I went running to the access to catch whoever it was, and when I looked down there there was no one there. alot of really wierd things happened in that house..I actually had people from my church exercize (spellng?) It. Later we found out there was a murder suicide there when a man came hoome unexpecttedly and found his wife in bed with another. I also had a visit from a recently deceased young neighbor girl, who was looking for her parents who had moved after her passing. that freaked me out. but I think sometimes spirits don't know they're gone, and they are unsettled. I usually tell them to go toward the white light .. it seeems to work...

Life is about change.. embrace it or suffer

I'm not lesbian, but I am differeent than the rest of my family..( I dont fit the "normal" gender roles, I am anti money, anti goverment anti rules and pro moral pro integrity)....I can relate totally to what you're going thru.. Its good your telling them about how you feel... cause believe me if you don't they never get it..I didn't ever make a chance to talk to my dad until he got sick.I moved in with him to take care of him. We made up as much as we could in the three months before he died.. It wasn't enough for missing 46 years.. but at least we had that.. my thoughts and prayers will be with you both..

my husband Lonnie. 12-05... deceased
my best friend Kenny.9-08..Deceased
my mom 10-04.. deceased
my dad.3-06...deceased
my new friend.. still alive but not here, and may not be back
I dont know if you ever quit missing them.. so far I haven't

picking (whoops)

morning

avoid all those stimulants, is, my only good advice,
The Paranoia they create isn't very nice
I cant believe I'm saying it, not just once but twice
inside out, or outside in, It's sure a nasty vice
holding back the pain, can the lure of it entice
tantalinzing taste buds tempting cake slice
cause its unobtainable, some rare and wild spice
or simply cause its needed, like a tool or some device?

watching him, fall apart makes me want to cry,
tearing out his wiring , somehow, thinking I,
had a logical reason, I would want to spy
as if I couldn't ask him, for reasons he'd deny,
guilt or suspition or maybe just to pry
but if he thinks I'd do that, what does that imply?
one thing I must tell my friend, he is way too high
I think he's lost control, please tell the drug goodbye

good chills

wow!!

don't judge me without
a mile in my shoe
I can't help my self...
I really miss you. ....
you're only a "friend"?
But if only you knew.
when it comes to my heart
you haven't a clue.

trust is one isssue
but one of a few.
I don't want my heart
broken in two.
my feelings run deep
I guess yours do too
You exit stage left as if
given a cue.

what wrong with the garden?
where our love grew
did we neglect it?
did doubts then accrue?
Or a fatal attraction
Who'd want to persue?
theres something about this
I want to undo

open a door
and watch we'd do
birds trapped in a cage
out a window we flew
I believe what we need
is more than a view
we need somebody
to put trust into

don't you know? that it hurts
when you go like you do.
and my way of coping
you will misconstrue.
I can't act like I care,
anymore than, you do
waiting to cry as
the pain shall renew

we both have said things
we knew were untrue
under was truth
the truth we both knew
I needed you more
than you wanted me to.
I wish you no harm
please wish me none too.

not good for each other?
I'll always love you