Hi,
sorry to hear you are having a difficult time.
Have you heard of EFT or Tapping? I have found it to be very effective in reducing symptoms of PTSD. I have used it with others to reduce anxiety, fear related to phobias, relationships, work, physical pain and negative emotions. Gary Craig was the original founder of this technique. His website is www.emofree.com and there are lots of free resources on the net. It's simple to start to learn and can reduce symptoms immediately. You may know of it already but if not, I hope its helpful :-)