Thanks! Jamie..........

I guess I didnt tell everything. I was married also when I was 18. I graduated in 95 married Sept 9 1995, everything went good until my 2nd miscarriage he told me it was all my fault. The relationship started turning violate. In the end I was court ordered to leave the hometown cause the judge thought he was going to kill me, this is after he put a gun to my head. I left with a friend of mine, his father was a cop and his mom was a nurse, they told me I could live with them. I divorced in 1999. The same month of my divorce I found out I was pg. I was shocked. Well than April 11, we decided to get married I was 6 months pg. A week before I decided to marry this mom he cheated on me. I didnt think anything of it. But than it continued, he cheated on me with my coworker his coworker. Than June 29 2002, he left me and his 2 kids for a person he met on POGO. Come to find out that she was married and her husband left her for another man. On March 3 2003 we were divorced. He never showed up cause he was in California with her. Than I met the abusive guy, at daycare. Than in Dec 2004 I baught a house, 2 weeks after buying my house I got beat for 4.5 hours because I went to the wrong skating rink in a town that has only 2 stop lights so I didnt know there was more than just the big one. At that time I didnt know that the boys father moved back to minnesota. Well he moved out of her house and moved into an apartment. I was shocked I looked him up, I put pictures of his boys in his mail box. After 2 years of not seeing the boys, I braught them to see him. Than shortly after that I gave him another chance. He wasnt even in my house for 3 weeks and he left me again for his boss. Than his boss figured something out about him and decided not to be with him. Now he is with someone else. When he has a gf he seems not to care about the boys. I never talk bad about there dad, when they get older they can figure it out. The oldest is starting to have anger problems, sometimes, i wish I would just pack up his cloths and send him to his father, but if I did that he wouldnt have a place to sleep. Somedays I wish I just had a guy friend that would talk to my oldest. Since Im a "girl" and he is a young man he would understand a male more. He doesnt listen. I dont get it. The dad decided to show up to a wrestling met this last Saturday. My oldest finally beat a kid in wrestling after wrestling this kid for 3 years. The dad felt the need to take all the credit. This is the 1st time since December that he has even seen them. WHAT! I didnt say anything. The youngest one got 2nd place and he still felt the need to take the credit. They have been wrestling since January and its March.............
Times like this I just want to throw my hands up. Just like tonite, it was horrible, my brother whom is mental challenged he is my half brother, he helps my boys wrestling, but since the oldest one tonite lost all his matches, he belittled him in front of everyone. I took my oldest aside and told him that he did a good job and he tried. HE hurt his own nephews feelings. Mind you my brother is very abusive he is 2 years older than me, and about 1 year ago he knocked me out cold, I passed out in my bathroom and when I came to he was standing on my knuckles saying "You need my help now". Very abusive even when I was little and he was taken out of the house. Other than him and my mom whom thinks Im the worst mom every cause I put my boys in time out or write sentences because of behaviors. I feel that Im in a no win situation.
Other than the brother and my mom, the people that I have is my boys. I LOVE them so much, but I need the help taking care of them so I can work and I work fulltime nights and there is NO ONE around here that will watch them since they are very very very active boys, but when it comes to 8pm at nite they go to bed and sleep all night...........ok I think Im done sorry if I bored anyone.

thanks for telling us about your self and im not being sarcastic....

we all have stories some too long to tell

Sorry to hear that, Have A flower,

With a little work you have a good start there for a book.
You never know who you might meet in the publishing business.

I am so sorry and distressed that you have to go through this.