What is it like to have "friends" and "family" that actually like you?

Being Honest, I really don't know.

I have been asked repeatedly the past few months why I work so much. Well over 100 hours per week. the rest of the time I'm usually asleep.

And I sparked an interest in me, and I started to look back on my life. I found that the only times I've been asked to go out with "Friends" is when they need a favor, or need me to use my connections to get them out of trouble, or they want to meet some Big named person I've built a vehicle for or something. My "family" is the same way. I bust my ass and I make a good living. Not trying to brag. And I constantly get sh*t for it. Form the very people that are sopposed to be proud of you.

So why is it that when I'm trying to have respect for some of my clients, and won't contact them so someone can get a autograph or something, Or when I'm running thin on funds because I have money tied up in investments, or a show, or in a vehicle I'm building to sell, or anything else, everyone gets pissy with me? Get told that I don't love my "Family" because I won't give them all the money they want, or I won't hook up "Friends" anymore because I got sick of being used.

Then My ex left me for a drug dealer and thats when I really started noticing. I was there for everyone no matter what. It didn't matter what I was doing, if they needed help I was there. But when I needed Help no one was there. They were too busy, or just didn't want to hear about it. My own family just told me that I f*cked that up too and wouldn't talk to me again until they needed money. Their reason told to my face. They liked her better than they do me.

SO no I won't give handouts, I won't hook people up. And I work all the time so I don't have to deal with it or think about it. Then that are times like now that I can't get it off my mind. I hate the holidays. All of them. I guess I'm just a Pr*ck.

So there it is, as if anyone really gives a sh*t. and you shouldn't, It's not your issues to deal with.

I'm going to go away for awhile now. I'll be back when I'm in a better mood. Sorry to dump all this on ya'll, I guess I really shouldn't have. I guess I'm just getting over all the questions of why I work so much, and getting told not to, and that I need to take it easy. I cna't. Its the only thing that keeps me sane anymore. If I give up my work, and lose it, I'm f*cked.

See Ya'll when I'm better.

Drifter.

Drifter I CARE. My heart goes out to you., I'm sorry you feel that way.

by hun ..hope you get it sorted...sorry things are so bad...wish could help take care hun

sorry you feel that way. Hope it all works out for you. Take care of yourself.

I didnt read it all.

I use to be popular and friendly when I was 18. When I moved and tried making new friends, it seemed like no one wanted me. sucks how no one wants to help when you need it, but when you dont need help, everyone offers. fakers

I will be your friend and never ask you for a thing