When I close my eyes
I can tell no difference between now
And now
Worlds spinning above my eyelids
Disappearing when I try to look
All that keeps me from being
A heavenly being
Uncaring
Aware
That I am nothing
Is memory
Memory of a clawed hand
Held defiantly up to the sky
Shaking a diseased fist at my ambition
Furious at the inevitable attrition
Of my talent as a musician
By the time I learn to play the piano
The repomen will be repossessing everything
While I try to finish my sonata fast before they take it away
Giggling high notes
At the thought of a salesman’s’ death
Then guilty when it happens
I didn’t mean it
We sociopaths have to be careful not to play god

Its funny how when someone decides to really LIVE
Only near death experiences give them their kicks

What are you doing here
I told you to get out
I would but I cant seem to get out
I want out that’s for sure
I got up to use the restroom
Unbuckling my seatbelt and walking past the flight attendant
When I realized that I was in a car not a plane
Was I driving?

I fit this world
This NOW
On like a pair of worn jeans
Pockets stained raspberry red
From the hearts I’ve tried to hide
The liar detectors always go off
Yo tiene pasar el verano por tu
Pero yo hace despidirse a ti

My Spanish is broken
I stole it from the back of a book
O no
Anyway…
Que la chinga fue yo hablan about?
Oh yes I was saying

I’ll never be a good thief of hearts
Or a good insomniac
I try and I try
But the visions never come
I stay awake until my eyes are red
Waiting for the moment
When I have ice in my veins and fire in my head
Pero mi cabeza es frio

All I’ve got is
Breath so bad I wishes I had rabies as an excuse
And empty headed slobber

you have some great lines in here.