I am a male in his early thirties and I have been in only a couple of realationships so far in my life and got humiliated and wound up brokenhearted from them and not to mention I have been mistreated all my life.. I just want to be wanted by someone that does want me a part of there life if not that then at least make it where I'm not feeling like a young virgin kid all over as in I don't remember how or what it was like to be intimate with someone

You might want to consider professional help. Good Luck!

Start wiping the word "doormat" off your head mate? Reevaluate your life and worth and tell yourself "I'm not going to settle for 2nd best, as it sounds like a couple of women have given you the runaround, in life? Stand up and be counted! You don't need toxic people in your life as they come in both male and female form. Unfortunately, some of us guys overlook the toxic female, but they're very much real. Look at yourself in the mirror my friend and keep telling yourself that you aren't worthless and you deserve better in your life and it will happen for you. Of that, I'm certain. Keep your chin up and all the best, ok?