My Dear friend Pain you have been around all of my life'

You were there in my years of self-destructive effort to avoid
feeling during the war.

Your were there when i was feeling a powerful sense of shame and inadequacy.

You are like a wrecking ball that crashes through my life.

My self-identity shifts',My emotions spiral',My social circle
may change,but you stayed just the same .

You are my negative self-thoughts.

You are the reason i sometimes don't want to get out of bed.

You have made some bad choices for me in this life.

And you have riped my heart apart.

Just like a freight train in my head that won't stop!

But you my friend Pain are still there just the same.

I tryed to Drink you away but it did not work.

You just stayed the same and maybe got a little worse!

You have seen it all, the breakups and the lost love ones
go away to that better place.

And to the people who just wanted to hurt me and cause me
Pain little did they know.

That you were still inside me.

Even in those years that i was dead.

You stayed with me in that hospital bed.

In the war you fueled me and brought you friend anger in.

You my friend Pain are the friend i want to let go
but i have been in to much pain to do so.

And all the memory's that you hold are just so hard to let go!

painfully beautiful

Ditto

BlackFox -- Right now I'm there myself. Wishing us both the best my friend.

awww....