i need to have your opinions since i am not sure what it can be

It depends on who and what you are looking for and what you are wanting in life.
A very difficult question to answer as it depends on your current circumstances.

Is it just a w thing or do other letters cause the same issue?

Is it just a w thing or do other letters cause the same issue?

oh Freebird, look what you've done. You nagged the bejaysus out of the OP.

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Is it me, or is there an echo in this topic?

Assuming you aren't living a normal fun life, then what you do is push yourself to go out and experience and learn new things.

Figure out which of those are fun, then normalize them via repetition.
Possibly realizing that pushing yourself, and/or pushing yourself to go out and experience and learn new things is fun.

If what you're doing isn't normal and fun, trying, pushing yourself, and/or the things you experience/learn don't lead to anything fun worth normalizing, might try seeking professional help of some kind.
Psychologist, psychiatrist, doctor, dealer, hooker, life coach trainer, librarian.
All sorts of professionals out there.