Sometimes I flashback to
the hurt What should be so
easy gets crushed in the dirt

Haunting memories of the pain
Slowly driving me insane. my life
After you will never be the same.

I know the abuse wasn't your fault,
profession help you never sought.
But our marriage was the cost.

Your suicide attempts grew by the day
I tried to help but you pushed me away
And now I cry beside your early grave.

How could my life ever be the same
When I try to move on i feel the pain
A pain from taking all of the blame.

W.A.M. 12/19/17

Noone should have to go through that. I hope you are not alone this Christmas.

Very sad.

Thank you

Thank you

I have no words.

Thank you for sharing.

Very sad.

Thank you for sharing.

Very touching and sad. Thanks for sharing.

Thank you all

In dealing with my brother's suicide, I found peace when I finally understood that I was not -his mind/emotions, though I loved him above all on Earth, my whole life.

His choice, and suicide is a choice, was not what I would have ever believed he would choose.

But he did. At 36 yrs old, I received his body, the police sent to me. To bury.

My big brother. So good looking. So kind.

People make their choices, maybe in their weakest moment.

I know this much. God is merciful and not to worry on that issue.

I also know that there is peace to be found, in Christ, when you let them go to His nail scarred hands and trust in the resurrection and all He accomplished, for all.

He is the Saviour of all mankind, especially those who believe.
1st Timothy 4:10

Peace to you.

I'm so sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family

I don't know how you feel. I never experience that. As much as I want to say move on.. I know I have no right. Moving on takes time. Healing takes time.

Base on what you wrote, I can see that you really love your wife. She's lucky for having you as her husband. Wherever she is right now, I know that she's thankful for your love but for sure she will be happier seeing and knowing that you are happy.

Never blame yourself for what has happened. It's not your fault. It's not her fault.. it's the circumstance. Maybe she experienced depression or trauma about something (I really don't know) that made her decide to end her life. Maybe she became weak but I know that I can't judge her. I don't know what she experienced. Maybe that's too painful.

Sometimes things happen beyond our control and the only thing that we can do is to leave everything in God's hand.

In time, everything will be okay. God will heal you. God will take away all your pain. He will comfort you and he will never leave you alone.

Hugs! God bless!

Thank you very much

And just to add one truth...

He is raising everyone. To make things right.

Making things right
IS
the u blblical definition of justice.

You're welcome.. hugs God bless you!