I am so sorry bearfan *super big hugs* I hope that you can find someone better...guys can be confused and hurtful sometimes *nods* But I have lots of hope for you!!

I will really miss you if you go..
I guess we will still talk on the phone still though right?

OH I KNOW!!!

Thanks Ange. It sucks royally but I did get some guy advice and he thinks that this guy still has feelings for me, had this fling to test those fellings and possibly realized he was already attached and is now regretting what he did with the other girl but only time can tell that. He gave me the 'friends only' speech b/c he wanted to push me away so I didnt get hurt as much but it didnt help. Everything will work out in the end. Oh and btw, you're a friend now :)

you can call me whenever you want.
i might still leave my profile up,
but, i just won't be on as much.

my life is FINALLY starting to
get back to normal.

meaning, i'm getting my friends back
that my ex isolated me from, and all
of that. oh, and i'm back into the
dating scene.

so, i just won't be here.
but, you can call whenever
ya need a good rap.

Well thats good then.. Im glad things are getting back to the norm 4 u..

why, thank you. i am, too.
you have NO ideaaa.

4 me things r still the same..
Still nobody wants to date me...

I'd go on dates with you but your far away. Sadness

Yay friends! I like friends. Friends are good. Optimistic friends are super good haha. So I'm going to try and keep my optimism up too.

don't worry about it,
you'll find a date.

don't rely on jsh though,
just go out and get one.
it's easier.

Everyone I like online seems to live too far away. So it never works..

Its actually harder 4 me to go out because of my anxiety problems..

Well I can't type out a book here but a few key points...

1) This is the first guy that treated you well... until he lied to you... I wouldn't say he treated you that great! I would however say that it seems that he treated you well enough to get what he wanted (I hope I don't seem an a-hole for saying such) and maybe a lesson will be learned from this experience? Life is always teaching us something new, and sometimes the lessons are painful, unfortunately.

2) 6 weeks ain't that long girl... in the big picture, this won't matter too much down the road... if the longest failed relationship for most folks was only 6 weeks long we'd all have lower blood pressure, but most of us have been through much longer ties and lost them one way or another... you'll be fine, be strong, chin up... it isn't your fault that you were lied to. You'll find someone more deserving of your time before you know it.

3) Stop talking to him. He's a moron. Cut out the communication or you're just continuing to put salt in the wound... that's my opinion

Good luck

we're going to change your name

missdramaqueenxo

shut up.
i was being serious.

you guys were the one's i talked
to for awhile, so i was saying bye.

You don't really want to leave though, because I'm here. And well, I'm awesome.

actually, i DO want to leave.
and i AM leaving.

But I am kinda doing better now... I am on different meds..
But I still cant go out to clubs and all, plus I cannot hold a job..

oh

well bye then

you have my aim screenname,
it's not like we can't talk.