I know I am in a relationship
it's been 17yrs. now to date
but the love has faded
there is only loneliness
I'm one room him in the next
Time for us, is only a guess


So I searched the net in hopes
of finding a new home
to lay my weary head
and not be alone, I needed a place
where I could collect my thoughts
plan my future, without getting lost

I came to this site with all that in mind
and then it happened, a friend to be
you came to me, told me you'd help
I was scared at first,
but took your offer, quenched my thirst.

After a while, of getting to know
each while chatting and on the phone
my guard was let down, I could feel
that you where after more
then what I could deal, that was for sure


Proclaiming your love and destiny
I started to wonder, was this for me
your voice so southern it made me weak
the words you spoke, broke into defeat
we made a plan to take a stand
couldn't bare it no more
had to see this man
but once I saw you in place of the voice
alone I am, so same with you
cause, you, the face, where not my choice

I wanted you to stay as my friend
but what could we say, it had to end
this man I met, will lay forever
in my safe, for I believe he loved me
it just wasn't in the fates
I will never forget
the time we shared, but why did you
press on with such a force
to end up on this god forsaken course.


I miss your friendship

You know who you are
even though you live so far
I bellow my wings
each night as I pass above your home
just to check up,
to let you know your not alone

I miss the laughter that we shared
I wish things didn't go so fast
I warned you, I was not ready yet
but you presisted, your request
you said you loved me from the start
but I did not want that, right away

Now time sits still, I have no will
My poems take a hit and sit on the sill
your presense I miss, a broken heart
your friendship, I long for,
you'll have no part.




This poem is for you, wherever you are....

Noden

Beautiful write shared!

excellently stated ..

Thank you, but I feel so stupid for judging looks, I know he'll never forgive me....

therefore, I am the one that lost...

That is something you have deal with in your own mind to free this burden ...no biggie. When you choose the path you take, everything that comes with it is what you get.

I love the poem

That was a good poem...it was his loss not yours.

I somehow don't feel that way, I wish he would've listened to me...I just wasn't ready for a relationship, just needed a place to stay is all, and I told him that, no secerets, no games I played, no lies...

But I do thank you for your comment

Sorry for you loss of a freind.Everyone seem to be in such a hurry.Why??
If every one would keep in mind that although you get conections through talking.You will never really know untill you are face to face.
All we can exspect upon meating is to walk away with freindship still in place.If something more?great!!
Don' allow some one to push you...
good luck!!!!!!!!!!

thank you wolfchic I see I've gathered a few wolf in here

HE WOULD LISTEN

Thank you Frank, but it's been weeks now, has deleted me from his life

OPTIMISM IS THE NAME OF LOVE AND FAITH IN YOU IS THE NAME OF LIFE

Noden it is autumn and soon the cold rain
abates to make way for warm evenings by the fire
a refuge from the snow and bitterness
sip some tea and rejuvenate yourself
for soon it will be springtime

We've never met, or shared a word
But your cry in darkness I have heard
I felt your soul while seeking friends
Is that not where it all begins?

Friendship shared is best when earned
This a lesson I have have learned
I share my soul in word and rhyme
All else will come, when it is time

Friendships here it seems we share
These ones we've found, who really care
They always help me through my day
I offer mine in this same way

I offer a smile when your day is troubled

OMG, girl this is awesome and hits home so hard I heard a knock on my door. I hear you loud and clear seems at times the things that are said upon a screen and even on the phone puts us in another world that safe one we all dream of and need. But then when you meet it is just not there. That one thing we seek we look for that instant connection between two people. That spark that ignites not only our hearts but shakes the soul as well. Those that have never felt that or dreamed of it enough have no clue and think some live in a dream world. But I have felt that spark and the instant connection that rattled my heart and soul and made my head spin. Even tho we are not together now maybe the head on collision for us both was more then we were ready for I will never regret the time we shared for it was for some hell of some good memories.

So yeah now I know I want that again one that I have those same feelings with. There is no way I will settle for one that we just get along and enjoy each others company see those kinds I call my friends. To be honest if I never have the blessing to find what I truly seek I WILL WALK MY JOURNEY TO THE END ALONE. For I would rather be alone instead of with someone and be lonely.

This was just awesome girl shshsh was going to follow NNP steps in rhyme shshshh well needless to say it turned in to a full pledge poem instead. Lmao heheh will dedicate it to ya girl since you inspired it with your words. Awww girl ya good.

I will start by saying so many thank yous to the ones that have replied...

no_physcos_please,
slowhand,
sin,
Fadet2black



Tx...~your relating connection,
has brought forth
my ressurection~

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


No I won't hide
stay locked inside
I'll come out and play
till the end of the day.

So many thanks
my Tx friend
(and the wolf inside)

I am so pleased I am not alone on this:

I was off on the,
"Bridges of Madison County" romance movie, only if we had meshed, then I was soooooo, gone with him.

Awwww girl we maybe alone at times in our thoughts but when we open the doors to reality. Ya know what we find out even in our thoughts we were fooling ourselves cause there is a whole world out there and even tho we are not clones of another our thoughts cross paths more then we ever knew. Funny I have only come to realize this in the last year right here in these threads as I read what is within the hearts of others.

Tx...I really hope you find your "sweet bums"

He'll be sooooo, glad he found you...such a lovely heart you have.


I guess the saying goes, "walk a mile in my shoes" well in these poems we wrote of the same episode...

Hehehehe Noden he may love my heart if they take the time to see within sad most dont but see its my spirit (actually smart a*s*s attitude) most can't hang with for I'm one to voice my opinion without a thought. hehehe Humm possible have lived alone too many years and there is not one out there that can handle me hehehe. But ya know what it don't matter ohh would be nice don't get me wrong for I still very much alive within. But lately I have seen what I did not before and that is discovering me and what I really want out of life and love. Unless I can have that love I see in my dreams at night as well in my daydreams. Then I would rather just keep the image I have. For it would be much more satisfying then to only be with one cause we just get along and the ideal it is better than being alone. NOT

Noden, you are not alone in this...we are all here for you. We have all trekked that road before and know what it's like. Keep in touch. If you ever need anyone to talk too...just howl my way.