these may be reruns, but just wanted a place to put my writings so i can find them easier...hope you all enjoy.

My daughter’s eyes
I stare into her whiskey amber
The windows to her soul
And there I find my melted heart
With her trust in me so bold

Apparent is her joy for all
It’s brightly shining through
Showing her very innocence
While every experience is so new

Roaming wonder and bewilderment
Her amazement is no guise
For the world is radiant and vivid
Through my daughter’s eyes


Delusion
Emptiness is my soul
Hollow remorse I feel
Darkness in my eyes
It’s all very real

Obscurity is my song
Tumultuous I feast
Impressions usually wrong
First time we meet

Innocence is my air
Shrouded seclusion I lay
Misconceptions do beware
Unintentional I falsely portray


Mercury
Behold the fading breath
Of heatless stars
Drown by a blizzard’s grace

Shatter the golden glow
Of the horizon
And bring desolation to this place

Lose the soul of Mercury
From its cosmic band

Extinguish the glimmer
Of the blazing sun
And hear the moon’s soft cry

Rearrange the order
Of the Milky Way
And show misery to those who pry

Lose the soul of Mercury
From its cosmic band


the ride
movements fluid
balance measured
the bull bucks heavy

thighs tighten
adrenaline rushes
the bull bucks heavy

desire strengthens
spirits soar
the bull bucks heavy

body flying
emotions jumble
the bull bucks heavy

the earth comes unyielding
as the bull bucks heavy


I feel you there
Every night, when we part
I rush to bed, to the dark
And there you lay, in my dreams
Just in the shadows, or so it seems
I feel you there, watching, waiting
I feel you there, anticipating

Every day, when I awake
A mental image, I do partake
Just in the shadows, there you’ll be
Warm and solid, watching over me
I feel you there, in my mind
I feel you there, all the time


Lost
I am unbidden
Wrecked to my core
I wander aimlessly
Misplaced once more

Searching for my beacon
A light to grab a hold
But the fog comes rolling in
And instills the bitter cold

A glimmer in the horizon
Is what I wish to see
Something to hope for
Something to set me free


my mother, my friend, my beacon
my ship sailed free
drifting far and wide
following the current
going with the tide
selfishly listening only to me

mislaid in the seas
i was wayward bound
looking for my path
hoping it be found
eager to choose which to seize

my beacon shone bright
bringing me home
safely guiding
my wondering soul
through the dead night

she stood tall
and she stood proud
always available
this she had vowed
ready for my inevitable fall

now the light’s waned
the lighthouse stands vacant
i’m lost once more
my cries turn blatant
my cheeks grow stained

my solitude weakens
slowly i mend
my mother
my friend
my beacon


The lie
Dangerous a game he play
When he approached me blindly
Never did I know I'd feel this way
While he treated me kindly

Secrets held close to my heart
Never said or put to sound
Wishing now that from the start
The truth was told before it's found

Illusions swim in front of him
I struggle each night to stay
Guilt, remorse...all sets in
Bountifully adding to my quandary

Connection felt instantly
Unexplainable yearning toward
Yet all built off the latest lie
And for that I feel I'll be scorned


let me be
belligerent is the darkness of he
dismissing my brittle heart
stomping every piece of me
tearing my whole world apart
aching is all the pain i see
burden dodged on a broken dart
i just want to be let be
forever since that first moment start


Reflection
Smoke and illusions make up me
Barriers and walls do erect
I guard myself in every deed
Because I know I’m not perfect
Waiting for the day I’m freed
From these unwanted emotions


words of circles
words of circles
he doth speak
around and around
as he peeks
my curiosity
he doth catch
with his coyness
i can only match
never outwit
he doth appear
in my dreams
thoughts do sear
toy with me
he doth portray
and there within
my tumult lay


Is it true?
Is it true?
That I’ve been found?
No longer lost –
When you’re around?

Is it true?
That love is near?
No longer hiding –
No longer feared?

Is it true?
My soul’s complete?
No longer empty –
Once we meet?

Is it true?
I’ve met my match?
No longer searching –
That you’re my catch?

I feel found –

I feel loved –

I feel complete –

Is it true?


Intoxicated
My alcohol you may be…
For I am intoxicated over you
Drunken with desire and hope

Cocktail hour is upon us
And I long to drink you in
To savor your sweet daiquiri

Your words go down smooth
Like a well aged wine
Making me a little tipsy

I thirst for you to feel the same
I hunger for your thoughts
I crave to be under your influence

So drink up, drink up my friend
And let me befuddle you
Let me become your whiskey too


Stockade
Waiting with eager anticipation
I listen for his footfalls
Closer they come with my trepidation
Drawn by my impatient calls

Blinded by my secluded need
I strive for my release
Only to be reigned instead of freed
Making me beg with a fervent please

Gagged for my costly whim
It's my desires that he stole
Binding pulling at every limb
I struggle to find some control

Heightened awareness and sensations soar
I quiver at a single thought
Fear and faith intertwine once more
As I completely give in to being caught


The ending
Wounded hearts
Broken souls
Shattered egos
Troubled woes
For all the wrong decisions I’ve made
This is how my life unfolds
As all my good intentions fade
This is the direction my path shows

Misunderstandings
Delayed resentment
Shrouded anger
Harmful detachment
For everything I tried to rein
This becomes my only achievement
As I try to help maintain
This becomes my sad development

Really like the Jelly Bean's...

Very nice writing Jelly.......

Very good stuff JB.

Like the new stuff too.

jb we are new here and would have never seen them ty

great words some happy some sad thought pravocing

love the poems jb nice job

thank you everyone.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Me Jelly,, so love your work,,,, Beautiful

a bump for my baby

Awww but good reruns

Not only good reruns but a good idea as well

Poetic Mockery

Words mocking silently
Staring at me vacantly
Open to interpretation
Waiting for my revocation
Sharing my love for verbal play
A formidable opponent I must say
A game of rhetoric to ensue
This damn poem I write for you
And yet the cursor blinks on
Using me as your little pawn
Just to show that I can too
Make a mockery out of you

Nice work JB. Don't let the battle get the bet of you.

i so love jelly beans

Great job Jelly!!

Thank you everyone. I do appreciate your comments. And a special thanks to hanged for helping me with the ending.

Hugs to you Jelly,,, I so love your work ,,,,,

and your heart jb...thank you for saring and i do not mean just your poems

Thank you Mom I can't claim all the credit for that last though...it was going down the tubes quick, but luckily hanged stepped in and helped me out with the ending.

Awwwwwwwww Jelly your heart sings,,, amazing is your soul,,,,