I checked out books on my library card for you
because your legs can't walk to
because you did not wish to listen or take care of you
I have lost library time with fines for books you said were looking at you and then I found the pages soiled or ruined
like the love I felt for you
is it true then that this time around you want to marry me again and you say I am your best friend?
I am so tired of the dating game
of lies and cheating hearts and mocking laughter
is there ANY happily ever after?
At least I have God who comforts my soul and also my cats who snuggle with me at night
and purr to say HEY, EVERYTHING can be alright.
Just trust God and hang on
and now when again the librarian says I want to talk to you about a book you returned I ask you
I ask you again
WHY did you see the need to try to soil my soul?
and upon the pages of my heart write your "love"
on every empty part
reach out with a hug that could feel empty or right
depending on your mood
you are Darkness or light
saying you want marriage or freedom up and down
I am a yo-yo with a handpainted smile
turn it around to a frown
I am tired of being a handmidown
CLOWN