“Hanging By a Prayer’


When we are little we would always pretend.
To be grown up, we tried so hard to comprehend.
What would it be like?
When we grew up and had a little tyke.
At that time we had no ideal.
It was like spinning a roulette wheel.
Round and round it would go.
Spinning faster before it would start to slow.
We could not see how things would finally be.
We had no ideal nor at the time could we see.
The things you must do.
At times just to get through.
To us we were having fun for it was just a game.
We would hold them, feed them and to all proclaim.
What a beautiful baby we have don’t you see how sweet?
They are ohh look at that smile think he wants something to eat?
If only we had really knew.
How things really are then we might have had a different view.
But then you see when I held you.
As time passed by I watched as you struggled through.
The speech classes and special shoes but to my surprise.
You were all I had ever dreamed of, when I heard your cries.
My heart melted you were all I could think of.
To watch you take your first step getting your first ball glove.
You were growing up so fast; my little man you became.
Soccer, Football, and then the baseball you played a good game.
Then before I even had time to think it seemed to go so fast.
A young boy no more for now you stood tall and proud at last.
Before I realized it you had grown into a handsome young man.
Your dark wavy hair, eyes like coal, just to watch you smile.
I realize all the heartache we went through was worthwhile.
No matter how much it has cost me, I really don’t care.
I was so close to loosing you that night you were in despair.
A broken heart, and to many drugs I fought with my heart & soul.
Saying I love you as I fought with you to take the gun.
Away from you, then I realized you still had another one.
We cried, we yelled then at last we sat and just held.
It was a battle worth fighting for, one I would do again.
It's been five years but in my mind that night will remain.
But only to remind me of what I almost lost.
No matter what you might go through never give up at any cost.
I know at times some want to throw there hands in the air.
And just say I give up nothing more I can do or dare.
Just remember as you look back and see it is worth the fight.
To look into there face and see that smile ignite.
There is nothing in this world I would not give.
Or do if it meant my son had another chance to live.
I know sometimes that is not the way.
Things turn out and we don’t know what to say.
We just hope they will finally see without delay.
But at times all we can do in the end is pray.



K.L.M
10/03/2007




On the update life is great, we have had our hard time and we have had our good times. But all in all there has been more good than bad.

The reason I wrote this is due to I know someone else is struggling right now with there son and the things they are going through. This may only give a glimpse of what happen that night. But I understand what you are going through sometimes when we feel we are letting our kids be themselves it seems that they get lost in there own world and we do not even see it happen until it is almost too late. We try with all we have and still at times it is not enough. But what ever you do don't give up at least then you know you did all you could. Humm actually I have one of my sons friends that is 6'4 that was the Angel I needed to take him down to the ground and stayed with us till he calmed downed. But sometimes you must do what ever it takes. I Love You Beau!!

My prays and thoughts are with you

Thank u very much for your kind words but to be honest we are doing great that was 5 years ago but till brings tears to my eyes for that was just a touch of what all happen that night I found out one thing even at 5'3 and the will behind me there was nothing that could stand in my way that night. My son is right at 6ft and at the time weighed around 240 but has slimmed way down now lmao all I can say is thank you God for sending me my Angels that night. There are so many more that need yur prayes instead. but I do thank you for the kind jester.

Beautifully written Kristi. My daughter had issues too, not so much with drugs, but fought me all the way growing up. I was scared to death she wouldn't survive either, lots of bad decisions. I hope things go well for all the parents who need the help at this point, it certainly is not an easy road to travel.

Awwww thank you BigSExy thang have missed you lately But glad to know it is for a good reason


Marie you are so very right it is hard enough raising them along and it sure does not help when a boy does not have his father to guide him as he should.

I soooo amire all the men that really take the time to be in there kids lives.

It is so important now days and some still tend to ignore

(((( Puddin Cup ))))

Most amazing read,,,, I know how this has affected you and you my sweet sister are an amazing strong women and friend,, your soul shines upon all those who have stepped into your life and within your arms they find comfort and unconditional Love and support,,, I love you,,,,

Thanks so much for sharing this K...
Yes,
At times I think we are all here on a wing and a prayer...

((((Kristi & Beau)))) Now I see why you understand me so well, why you get me when other don't always get me.The love and strength you have for those you love shines through.

((((((((Buttercup))))))))) I Love You, my sister, my friend you are an amazing person within always giving and never asking for anything in return. You have touched my heart in more ways than one.

SCG yes at times that is true but always remember that wing and that prayer does come in handy when we least expect them too. They are the gold threads that dangle before our eyes at times and pull us back up into reality and reminds us how blessed we really are.

CCP Awwwwwww my little sister it is not hard to understand you for all one has to do is read your words. I mean really read your words and let them sink in for within your words is your heart and soul. Showing us where you have been from the shadows within to the tip of the moon. It is all there for one to see and feel for your words can make one soar as well as see the blood tear stained eyes from the hurt one has endured. You see my little sister I look at you and see such strength within. It does show from the sparkle in your eyes and the glow on your face that now you let us see that before you hid within the shadows.

Kristi,I thank you from the bottom of my heart,for the time you put in this,it gives me hope,and strength to believe what ever God's plan is I'll get through it.Every one already knows your a gem to so many of us.Thank you my dear friend Hugs

pkh Awwwww my dear friend if only it just gives you one more thread to hang onto then it was worth putting these words upon the page. For at times all we have left is but a prayer. But.... we all have been shown many times over that words are strentgh and they have more power than most would ever think. You see these gold threads that we weave and hang onto are from Heaven above. Some times it only takes a kind word for one to see that hope has not went away it is still here today.

MsTeddy I do love the Bear sweet!!

you said only 5'3 its not the size of the dog in the fight...its the size of the fight in the dogthat counts


very moving, always love to read what ya write
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Kristi, u are such a great lady and awesume person, It is a privalige to call yu a friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!1