There Are Reasons

There are reasons
why
when it is quiet
and my soul’s thoughts are alone
that I still cannot open the windows

Even when I try to escape the moments
by dreaming
the world and time
are vastly different than reality
it still feels as if the air is too heavy to breathe

I am afraid
I am afraid that if I open my eyes
I will not see you
I am afraid that the rain will continue to fall
I am afraid of the emptiness of eternity
and mostly
I am afraid that my heart will feel each painful reason
I am alone in the darkness of memories

Beautiful