Topic: One-Sided
MariahsFantasy's photo
Tue 06/03/14 06:17 PM
This new body, new sights
Not sure what to do
Exciting, these hands are inviting
Golden are the actions behind words
And yet, somewhere buried
Caring makes you lose control
Makes me sorry

Every shade different from the next
But predictable
You say you miss me but you
don't know me
Never made real efforts
Friendship, what a great act you put on
The less I think the better
The radical Truth: empty promises without an ending
Then I'll stop rowing to your tide
Making it easier to hide
in myself and my feelings
You listen, but it has no meaning

If I'm mad then you've won
Praising doesn't make up for what you've done
to me, signs were everywhere
But you're not scared
You've been there before
Using people for amusement
But we are still people, have hearts
that you've poisoned, made sore
The center of us, of me
Crazy thoughts swirling

Hard to know what matters
I think I know but I really don't
Getting a reaction was all you wanted
I see, insanity, I know, shouldn't be on the mind
so abruptly
But it is, need to get out of this funk
and there is still time
Sipping warm tea, smelling the freshness of Earth
Bathing in aliveness, the water and trees
creation begging to be seen
Watching the souls of life breathe
drowning in realness, living to be

The best conversations are in my head
Better than anything you've said
The more you live the more it hurts, but it can't
because you don't believe it's true
Nor I, you see
We don't know fate, can't know what tears mean
unless we strip away the sickness, and
if you
Stop pushing harshly
I will give it back harder
For what it's worth if anything
Not mad, just aware
You're already there while I'm growing further
away from you, just safer

It's me, only I get it
Only I know it, I think
streamed off from somewhere placid
A known feeling
Good, strong, strange, welcoming
Nothing more than an illusion
Change emerges and I wish to hang on
then move onward
Stop feeding me lies
Only yours were wrong
mine was never a disguise
If you believed in me
and didn't say goodbye so easily
Patience, dreaming, it's all I need

-Audrey

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Tue 06/03/14 07:05 PM
flowers flowers flowers flowers

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Tue 06/03/14 07:54 PM
stop rowing to your tide......
feel the emotion in this..
thankyou for sharing
flowerforyou

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Tue 06/03/14 07:54 PM
drinker flowerforyou

MariahsFantasy's photo
Thu 06/05/14 12:12 AM
Thanks guys so much! blushing flowerforyou

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Thu 06/05/14 04:39 AM
Audrey, you gave so much in this piece, so much I will keep and place in a box filled with love and lost love....Then, when I am questioning myself or him, I will open my box and find solace... flowerforyou :heart: flowerforyou

MariahsFantasy's photo
Thu 06/05/14 07:41 AM

Audrey, you gave so much in this piece, so much I will keep and place in a box filled with love and lost love....Then, when I am questioning myself or him, I will open my box and find solace... flowerforyou :heart: flowerforyou


A lot was going in my head and heart when I wrote it. I had to read it back a few times, actually saying the words aloud, and I rarely do that. Writing in vulnerability and strength is an interesting mix. bigsmile

peternellex's photo
Fri 06/06/14 06:59 PM
I love this very much

MariahsFantasy's photo
Fri 06/06/14 09:54 PM

I love this very much


Thank you. flowerforyou :smile: