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I also used to believe that there was something seriously wrong with me, so thinking about how most of my life people told me,I had no emotions didn't smile or communicate, i had no knowledge on how to communicate or share feelings..which was true..now they tell me “You’re too sensitive,” “so intense,” “you’re just so emotional. It only felt safe to feel it all alone. I’d get sideswiped by inexplicable emotion at inconvenient times. So, I just tried to keep it all under wraps, keep it all under conscious control. I didn’t trust myself at all. I didn’t trust my body more or less anyone else, although I had many friends. I didn’t trust anything other than my thoughts. My body was so unpredictable and confusing, this sensitivity was so out of control. I spent a lot of time alone, I tried to have relationship with women, but was clueless. Had no confidence socially, or intimately. Now as a highly sensitive person, I am starting out with all this raw sensation at the transcendent level. It was up to me to work on myself I needed to be more positive, I could only live with personal discontent for so long So I began working on my self-esteem. I have realised that I always put others before myself, mostly because I care far more for others than I do for myself Now my sensitive nervous system can pick up on other people’s emotions We often think of sensitivity as weakness for three main reasons: it is out of our logical control, it makes us vulnerable, and we don’t know what to do with it, which means that we suppress and judge it—so it has manifested in weakness. I turned my weakness into strength, I learned to communicate..to have to ability to share my thoughts,my feelings and no reservations in expressing them is a great accomplishment. I realize I have a abundance of affection that was laying dormant inside me. I didn't no how sensual I could be. One thing I can truthfully confess to , we as men can learn so much from a woman even about ourselves, if only some of us take the time to listen, understand and not be so hesitant in communicating with them. Women are a phenomenal treasure from above. Believe me I listen and I gain knowledge. The degree of love I give is determined by my own capability. My capability is determined by the environment of my past existence and my understanding of love, truth and God. My understanding is determined by my parents, friends, places I have lived and been. Each experience is fed into my mind from living
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