Nope, not PMS I think it might be a lot of stress, as I just took a promotion at work and we are working with a lot of acute teens.

I'm really sorry to hear that, Arizona. Have you looked into a support group? Not saying that it would erase the pain totally, but maybe talking to other mothers who experienced the same situation could help you manage it? Often the best therapy is with others who have been through the same experience.

the doctors say i have major depression recurrent the funny thing is i have alcoholism along with that but i have been sober since july 14...my depression comes and goes but what works for me is lots of prayer rest and keeping my mind busy good luck shagna god bless ya

Thank you GG2. I couldn't agree with you more GG2. I do go on a chat site for people who have lost their babies and I try to go on it as much as possible. But there are days like today. I suffer in silence because I do not want people to feel sorry for me. But that's no good either. I want to thank you all personally for allowing me to vent on here.

Vent anytime AZ!! Days like you had today maybe a brisk walk to increase your endorphins would be good?

Stevil congrats on your sobriety!! My dad went thru the same thing, 30+ years later he's still sober! He does the same thing, keeps himself occupied from the time he wakes up til he goes to sleep. Nothing laborous, just staying occupied. Keep up the good work, man!!

WOW GG2 I never thought about that. If I may, I read in the paper that a father killed his 2 month old baby by shaking him and broke 2 of his ribs while changing his diaper. All I want is 5 minutes along with this guy. That's all it'll take. And even though I never this blessing, I mourned him. Whenever I hear of a child dying, I literally mourn as if I knew them. I just don't understand it.

Nothing wrong with mourning ANY child. That's your maternal instinct! Besides, having lost a child yourself, at least recognize that you haven't gone the opposite way and shut your feelings off. Mourning is a part of life and never feel bad about it or try to understand why you mourn strangers.

I'll tell you one thing GG2. I have the most supportive parents in this entire world. I think that is why I have not gone over the deep end. But there are days where I just want the pain to stop. People tell me I have to confront it in order to lead a semi normal life. I can't. It hurts that much. What I do is put a mask on to show others I am OK. It has worked for me so far but I am only kidding myself. I often ask myself, how much longer can I put this act on before I finally crack. As long as I can.

I just sent you a pm AZ!

I have dealt with depression all my life. It feels like there is no rhyme or reason to it. If it isn't situational then it is probably chemical. It it continues get some help. Just know that there are a lot of us out there that deal with it everyday. Hang in there!

felt that way a couple days ago,just wanted to lay in bed and sleep.not see anyone. felt weird,not my usual self.

Depression is a MAJOR drag but I swear the best thing is exercise, better than any therapy or drug.

evad that doesn't sound like a bad idea!

Really, you can have a 'down' day here and there, but actual depression doesn't go away after a couple of days, it's with you for life and it CAN be managed.

good to hear. GG2 so how are you tonight?

I'm here! A new vid of Syd's Floyd at the UFO in '67 on my forum came up but it was just 4 minutes of trippin' hippies!