your eyes
were the first thing to ask.
i was surprised
at how effortlessly
my smile
responded.

i couldn’t help but
wonder;

does he see the sadness
that peaks out
just behind the mascara,

or is this something
you have entrusted
only to me?

i wish i could give it back.
every time i see you now,
i wish we found it more
difficult to laugh.
i wish i hadn’t seen
your ghost;
and i wish my mind would
quit treating it
like a godsend.

before you,
i existed peacefully.
since you, i subsist
in my own
self-indulgent mind,
manufacturing reasons
to be near you
and inventing memories
of conversations
i wish we’d had.

where i drink-in every word
that trickles across those lips.
holding each syllable
under my tongue,
until they boil in meaning
and i am forced to swallow.

take it back, that look,
that lingering hand on my waist;
the quick whispers when nobody
is paying attention.
take it all back,
because
i can’t tell you
i am the answer,
i’m only now beginning
to understand
the question.



© kc `13

k..i read it once,i read it twice...it's a jewel.

Wow i am in awe
What a meaningful piece Kc
Sigh....
Really moving !


KiK

cyn...it didn't go where I set out, but they often don't (for me)

thank you for your continued kindness.

Awesome write kc

Drink fine wine, listen to fabulous music, read KC's poetry...<3

kik...I appreciate that.

h.n.h. thank you for taking the time to read.

pass the wine!

k....yes i've had that pleasure of beginning a written piece one way ony to find it's taking it's own path.....then just sit back and watch the words battle it out....what kindness...smile...


and...i hold my empty goblet out to you...grin.

To hear you voice it will make it even more of a jewel...

There is something fascinating about the way put things.
It's mesmerizing. Wonderful write.

haha ainjel..I will see what I can do.


sinner, thank you for that, nice of you to say.

Excellent write....

i am crushing this write kc.... so so good!! :)