Okay, Minglers, I’m starting something new, a thread to express bad feelings and experiences, hopefully in a good way. And I invite everyone who needs to occasionally vent, to post yours here too, if you are so inclined.

I CAUGHT YOU



Eeeewww!!!

One look at all this
And my ire rises
To INDELIBLE

Something of which I thought I was incapable
And yet this thread makes it entirely possible
For me to get postal

This feeling consumes me
Body and Soul

Like dead weight on my chest

I just want this out of my head!!!

How in the world is this happening?

Even subconsciously
It’s always the same thing I see

I don’t understand
WHY
I let it even affect me

Yet
I think it might be YOU
Yes

You..
You…

You
Shallow
Outright narrow
Bag of wind!!!!

I can see you in the mirror
Nothing and no one can be anymore clearer

You are sooooo
Not my scent
Not my air
NOT MY BREATH!

In fact
If I ever sneeze you out again
You will evaporate permanently then

Count on it
With both hands and feet
Twenty digits each
Who compete
One with another
To finish first

Although last with me wins the purse

And you…
Once again…

YOU

Think you have a chance
With my heart in your hands

I’m trying to make a stand
On the outcome of your plan
As I myself welcome another man

After you took
And took
And took
And took

You’re just a conniving CROOK!

A mind bending
Heart rending
Never ending

Baited hook

Catching fish
To filet

But, it’s you who’s gettin fried today!!!

©Athena Rose

02/02/13

BLIND SEEING SOULS

Let me tell you why she's my mother
When you're the one who gave me life
Let me tell you things I've never said before
On my death bed things I'll still resent you for
You know I've preyed
A million times
That you were the one who died
Instead of her
You waste of life
Im so over preying
Asking God to see you through
I'm just not that good a Christian
I truly do hate you
Choosing demons
Over six children
You chose to hit a pipe
I'm the baby
I share your birthday
When people see me they see you
I lash out and I fight back
Because that isn't further from the truth
I love my babies
I'm not you
Couldn't do the awful things you do
You waste of life
Sitting back hitting a pipe
When your children all were beaten
Abused when he crawled in at night
Seeking pretty little girl
Who know they couldn't tell
Conceived by two fools
with no business giving life
You're the reason beautiful
Is so ugly to me
Rather be blind seeing souls
Then outwardly beautiful people
Drugs
Neglect
Rape
Abuse
Its all I see when I look at you

WoW!!! Now this is some deep feelings here... Tayah... I rolled with you from first breath to last... and can so relate with the depth of anger and bitterness... I especially like this one line that says so much more than these few words...

You're the reason beautiful
Is so ugly to me

I want to get the courage to let go and express like this...
thank you for really putting your message out here...
girl, you're awesome...

Children love their parents blindly even when they are unworthy of said love. Its this twisted connection in my case. Of all six children I'm the only on who tries to take care of her. She hates me! Yesterday I just wanted to hate her back. Feel free of that twisted connection. I love her, on her namesake and I was born on her birthday but the woman who adopted me and saved my life was and always well be my mom.

Thanks for reading rose

(((Tay))).....I wish I could reach through this screen and hug you!!...Your strength and honesty is pulling at all my heart strings because I so understand why/how you are conflicted!...Thank God for people like your adoptive parents...The exceptional woman you are demonstrates in countless ways just how much they love you....You are very special

I can totally relate to your situation, Tayah, and not all children will devote themselves to their parents if they have been severely abused or neglected by one or both, although we still love them innately. And I know how much your mother appreciates the fact that you help her even when she hasn't earned your respect. You are a giving soul and will reap the love that you sow. Though I know that having an adopted mother that you truly love and admire really helps make it easier for you. Being hated by your biological mother is a sting that I felt keenly myself, and I'm glad that you feel comfortable enough to post your need to vent here with me, as we all do need to release our frustrations from time to time. I know that I fully intend to use this thread when ever my emotions get the better of me and I need to express them, or bust. lol.. So, please feel free to return anytime you need an ear, because I'll be hear to listen and help if I can.

Something Better Is Coming My Way!!!

So you think your termination plays are going to get under my skin… all I have to say to your new antics… is… let the f*cking games begin… yes… I can be kind… I can be sweet… I know how to calmly take the heat… I also know when I’m facing an enemy… an enemy that wants to get the best of me… and you’re a computer geek… actually… you’re more of a freak… a cast off from society… you can rock my world and nobody but me will ever see… but what you did today… hey… I’m cool with change… obviously something better is coming into play… and I don’t have to have every little thing my way… because unlike you… I believe in things that make dreams come true… and my future is going to be much better without you too… in fact… unrequited… my a$$... you’ll have to do much better than that… we know each other much too well… now it’s time we both dance our last dance… in hell… so here’s my grand farewell… the major difference between us is… I don’t kiss and tell…