That reminds me, I bought some spirulina on Friday, put it in my purse and forgot about it. I hope it helps with memory.

. . excellent advice, also some meds take time to take full effect. It can take weeks at a given dose to know if it will be beneficial.

Keep at it, try to stay positive, I know with something this challenging and thinking your life is over it can make anyone depressed.

When I thought Id never walk again I went into a deep deep depression, it is only natural. I think often times people who are diagnosed with mental disorders beat themselves up over depression becuase they think they are flawed, or broken for being depressed. Depression can be quite natural given facing any kind of dramatic changes in your life.

These kinds of meds can have some extreme side effects and it takes time to adjust. I wouldn't jump to immediate conclusions. I agree however that if a medical provider doesn't seem to be communicating why they are doing what they are doing, I would get antsy and seek other opinions.

Last but not least, no one on hear knows you, and I know for a fact I am not a medical professional, so any advice you get here should not be taking as medical advice.
In humans, small studies have been undertaken evaluating spirulina in undernourished children,[28] as a treatment for the cosmetic aspects of arsenic poisoning,[29] in hay fever and allergic rhinitis,[30][31] in arthritis,[32][Requires clarification, since IL-2 is typically thought of as pro-inflammatory] in hyperlipidemia and hypertension,[33][32] and as a means of improving exercise tolerance.[34]

At present, these studies are considered preliminary. According to the U.S. National Institutes of Health, at present there is insufficient scientific evidence to recommend spirulina supplementation for any human condition, and more research is needed to clarify its benefits, if any.
Hi Canon,

I spend the majority of my time manic. I have all sorts of paradoxical effects to medication. Some I metabolize too strongly and some do nothing. I have been doing this since 1996.

What has helped me the most is years and years of therapy to learn coping skills.

I have learned to recognize irrational thoughts and combat them. It's like learning a martial art. Which great practice, you will do it on auto pilot when fighting for your life.

I do not actually get suicidal. I get what they call suicidal idealization which mean I think about it and think I want to die but would never ever act on it.

Using my skill set, I am not to tell myself that it's not reality. That I am doing what they call catastrophicizing (sp). Meaning blowing bad things out of proportion. I am able to realize that these thoughts WILL pass, and I rationalize through them down to telling myself of the repercussions my harming myself would have on my loved ones, pets, etc.

I have also learned to recognize and not make what are called "unilateral" decisions like you did with the cameras. Meaning I do not make major decisions that can affect things without consulting someone who I trust to be rational. Before I learned what that was called, I didn't understand why I kept making so many unrelated mistakes that angered people. When I learned the term, I became quickly able to recognize, "Hey in doing this, I impact others. I need to ask someone for a trusted opinion".

Remember medication can only do so much. You have to fight the good fight as well.

Good luck and god bless,

Terri I am no pro but this sounds like good advice.