I wish for once in my life i could mean more  to somebody 
And be more for somebody 
And for them to be nice and treat me right
Even when were out in plain sight
And to not change from daylight to night 
I just want to be held tight
And not go to bed alone like most nights
Is that so much to ask
I want someone who doesn't have to hide behind a mask
Someone that can make a big impact 
And still keep my heart intact
but instead I'm left with all these pieces 
I can't take anymore my heart's had too many seizures
I wanna believe true love exists 
for me it's more or less a myth
I'm too scared to have another first kiss
So I sit
And dream of the day when we can coexist 

writing helps to get it out and move forward for me

so heartfelt