It's so simple really,
It's not complicated, not at all to me.
But you ,well, you just cant see.
Have you really tried?

There is or will never be anyone else, Ever again.
I gave you my heart and soul.
And it is yours to keep.
There really is no more of me to give.

You are all the dreams I could ever have or ever want.
You are all I could ever have needed.

Your voice, your laugh,and your words are what has kept me going.
On the days I dont hear from you my heart skips a beat.
And I know it is what I deserve.
sometimes it is better to remember and be in pain than to not feel you at all.
As much as it hurts, and it hurts deeply.

I loved once, so much I gave it my all, and when I lost him I lost "me"..

Once again I gave what I could, I gave you what I had to give.
My heart and my soul, and I am losing "me"again!

I am fighting the battle of a liftime, a battle I dont know if I can win.
But I am trying to do what is right and protect those I do love the most..
You and those Girls...
I know you hate me and you have that right..
But I am trying to protect you from the pain.
Is that not my right?

You call it "Life". I call it "Death".
It hurts so much all the same!

I never ment to hurt you, and no this is no game.
I never ment to let you down, or for us to dare to dream and be gone..
You have to know this is not only hard on you, but it is hard on me to..

I am sick and I have a broken heart.

Sometimes I am in so much pain I dont even know my name.
Sometimes I throw up so hard I lose control- Control over everything.
Sometimes I am so paralized with fear that the only thing that moves are the tears that slide
down my face.
At times I dont even know if it is day or night, or even what day it is.

My head plays tug of war.
To fight or not to fight..
Do I live in sickness and pain or give up and live as normally as I can..
For as long as that might be?

If only I could see where the end results will take me.
Can I beat this, do I have it in me?
You believe I can, do I believe in you?

They want to cut me apart, my heart is all-ready gone...
So nothing that is left really matters in the end.

It's simpley really not that simple -

OMG-you just wrote about EXACTLY what I am going through. Thank you for sharing!!

A fantastic write Sasha...All the best to you...

Well done

nicely done....welcome

If only one small piece of YOU remains, its worth everything to save it...........GREAT WRITE.....